#i dont get how this is all hapening to me again and again .

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Having so many emergencies that i have to prioritize the on i am having at the moment. But when, now, the one i had in the beginning of the year comes back i know it's my fault bcs i did not look further into it when it started to go away. But I had no time to look further into it bcs the next emergency with my body was happening. And i had to prioritize that one. But now i am in very much pain with both??

[matchalattegreen]

hello!!!!!!!! i saw a post you made and thought i'd drop in. was wondering if you had any headcanons for like, perfect au where johnny and dally dont die? always love hearing peoples thoughts.

feel free to send me requests too!!!!!!!

have a great day/night!!!

~Jamie

love it!!

Johnny and Dally hc's

Takes place in an au where they are NOT dead and the book never hapened

Dally got out of jail

Johnny tells him how hard it was without him while he was gone in jail

Dally promises that he'll never go to jail again

Dally hates how scared Johnny gets whenever he sees the socs or the blue mustang

Anytime a soc gets anywhere near Johnny, Dally gets right in front of him and gives the socs a glare that means business

Darry is begging Dally to get a job

Ponyboy helps tutor Johnny because he struggles in school

Sodapop and Steve get both Dally and Two Bit jobs at the DX

They aren't really trusted enough to do much but they help out a little

Steve graduates but Dally ends up dropping out of school before graduation

Thanks to Ponyboy, both him and Johnny graduate a couple years later

Ponyboy goes to college at a good university from a scholarship

Johnny doesn't go to college but Ponyboy gets enough money to rent an apartment for him and Johnny to live together

Dally drops by and stays the night often but is too stubborn to say that he actually lives with them

Ponyboy gets out of college and becomes an English teacher

He helps Johnny get a job at a small bookstore near their apartment

Dally quits working at the DX and tries to work with Johnny but gets fired

He gives up looking for a job

He doesn't really need a job anyway because Ponyboy convinces him to officially move in with him and Johnny

The apartment is only two bedrooms so Dally has to sleep on the couch but he doesn't mind (it's what he had been doing all along anyway)

They still go back to the Curtis house to celebrate holidays and things like that

Darry tells Ponyboy to stop giving Johnny and Dally money

Ponyboy says he will stop but keeps giving them money anyway because it makes him feel good

Johnny and Dally appreciate it but feel bad and say that they will move out eventually

They never do because they like it better living with Ponyboy

Ponyboy doesn't mind, he actually loves them living with him

[nwarrior777]

very dark sad text about how i feel right now

if you wonder how i am doing mentally:

we talked with friends in chat and conversation came to talking about a way of moving away from countries by getting refugee status

and there is the thing that, as i heard, if you do that, there is a rule, that you can't visit country which you are running from (it's not 100℅ correct info, i just heard that this can be a thing, and it has exceptions, etc etc. pls don't panic if you are going to be a refugee, or are already, it's not from news or anything, if you are starting this path you already know about this aspect better than i, and if you aren't refugee, don't take is as 100% true info about refugee situations, again, i just heard it somewhere)

the thing is, my friends told me that it's a thing for people to think about for making decision on starting this path or not. and i was like.... really? someone is worring about it?

if i could have a chance i wouldn't think a second. like, idk, refugee center worker, or how it works, idk, would ask like: hey do you know that you will not be able to visit that countr-YES YES I KNOW I DONT WANT TO VISIT IT NEVER EVER IN MY LIFE I WILL NOT EVEN LOOK IN A SIDE OF A COMPASS IN DIRECTION OF THIS COUNTRY!! WHY DO YOU THINK I AM HERE IN THIS CENTER??? - would be my answer

and i started to think like... but it is important thing for people. and someone giving their ability to visit that first place as their sacrifice. and i thought. what sacrifice i could give?

i remembered my childhood intrusive thoughts. it was like that button memes with "you can press the button to [something] to hapen but [something else] also happen". but it was sad thoughts, not funny pictures. i imagined me choosing between something. visually in my head it was like tv show. i stand, and there's the question "here's your mam, cat, and dad. choose who to live and who will be killed". and i had to choose. i don't remember my choices only question

and today, after that chat with friends i imagined that weird "what if" choice like. what would i give for getting out of here? (and yes i would get out of here long time ago but i am not able to. it's kind of the heart of the problem)

and i thinked about it. and i understood that i feel. bad. i underestimated my depression

because i would agree to live in most broke flat. matrass in a room with 20 people? if not here - i am all in

i would give all my things. everything. leave me clothes which i am wearing, take everything else if you will take me away

and. it's a that. non-real abstract scenarios. "we will take you away, but you sleep in room with 20 people on the floor, what's you think?" - this is not how it's happen. i am just thinking about what i have and what i could give for getting away, if it worked like that.

so, all my things which i collected in 2 bags. bad living conditions. what i am ready to agree on else? what else i can to give in that strange abstract deal? what i even have?

i would give my leg. no hesitation

i was saying this to my friend in voice message, and it took me 5 seconds of thinking and to say that i would give 2 legs

if it was an option like "you can buy living not in your country by giving us your limbs" - have my legs, i would be first in line

i am an artist and. i thought a little longer. maybe 10 mins and come to thought that i would give my left arm too

i stopped thinking this thought somewhere here.

i am sorry if i sound offensive to disabled people, say me pls if it's something really bad to say. If you are disabled and this text offense you, tell me, i will delete this post. i am writing in emotions and not really like. eh. thinking about. just say if its bad pls

It's just thoughts about what i have and what i would give as sacrifice. And everything i have is my 2 bags. And my body. (and my art but freedom of art is one of the reasons why i wish to get away)

and i just thought about that if people think about not being able to visit country which they are running from as sacrifice, i started to think, do i consider even anything as sacrifice. and well, as you can see, that i absolutely have no problem with real things which are sacrifices to others in that situation, i would be fine i am sure, so i made up a abstract situation in my head to see how far i can go and.

that fact that i would agree to give my limbs for getting out of here. i think it's very sad. i didn't think i feel so bad being here

can you imagine thinking of place there you live like that. it's not okay for people suffer so much that giving a fucking leg is something they can say on, without doubt "if you will get me away take it TAKE IT"

it's so fucked up

p.s. the country is russia by the way

[sakiblack]

Chapter 1 :Hacketts quarry forever

Nick x reader

Your pov.

Emma:Bye!

y/n:Have fun kids!

Me and Emma yelled as the bus full of children was leaving.I must say i will miss them.This summer was really fun.

Kaitlyn:See ya later kids!

Jacob:Yeah Hacketts Quarry forever!

I could hear Jake and Kaitlyn yell far behind me and Emma.

y/n:I will miss them.

I said looking at Emma.

Emma:Yeah me too.

She replied with a smile.

y/n:But anyways how are you and Ja-

Emma:Shut it y/n! You already know what hapened.

y/n:Yeah yeah but i still dont get it.He likes you and you like him why not stay together?

Emma:It was just a summer s-

y/n:Oh dont give me that.

Emma:Its true plus it would not even work out so why even keep it going?

y/n:You really are stupid.

Emma:Maybe but im hot.

Said Emma as i roled my eyes.

y/n:Come on i wanna eat something.

I said as i started to walk to the camp.

Kaitlyn:Hey Emma ,y/n.

Said Kaitlyn as she and Jacob walked past us.

Emma:Hey.

Said Emma as i just give a happy look to Kaitlyn and Jake.

y/n:Well im ganna go in to get some food you comming?

Emma:Neh i need to get something.

y/n:What ever you say Em.

I said as i walked away.Em was a nick name i gived to Emma.Well i gived one to everyone.Jacob is J or Jake , Kaitlyn was Lyn , Abigail was Abi , Dylan was smart pants , Ryan was Ry and Nick was well Nick was Nick or sometimes Nicknick.

I must say i do like Nick and by some secret telling (from Dylan) Nick likes me too.But not me nor him ever said something about it.

I got up the stairs and tried to open the door but it was locked.

y/n:Hello anyone in there?

I asked nocking on the door.The door opened fast after i said it.It was Dylan and behind him Nick.Dylan was my bestfriend.The first day of getting hire we became like a brother and sister.

Dylan: Whatcha need y/n.

y/n:Im hungry i wanna get something to eat.

Nick:Uhhh i dont think you can…..only if you know the secret word.

Said Nick looking at me with a smirk.

y/n:Hm?No idea what your talking about.

I said as Dylan smiled at us.

Nick:Well then your not getting in.Close the door Dylan.

Said Nick as Dylan started to close the door.

y/n:Sh-t wait!

I said as the door was almost closed.

y/n:I y/n am an idiot and Nick is the hottest and smartest guy out there.

I said as the door opened again.

Nick:There you go princess.

His nickname for me.No idea how he came up with it but i like it.

y/n:Well thank you sir.

I said getting inside.

y/n:Is there any food hire?

I asked looking at the two stupid idiots.

Nick:I have a sandwich.

Said Nick as he handed me a small  sandwich.

y/n:Did you eat half of it?

Nick:Hey i was hungry.

y/n:Yeah yeah give it to me.

I said as i took the  sandwich and started to eat it.Just then there was another nock on the door.We all loked at eachother and opened the door.

Jacob:Hey are you guys gonna help with the bags or what.

Said Jacob as i wanted to go out and help him but was stoped by Nicks hand.

Dylan:Uh um .. you know i was actually just working  on fixing .. the door.It … its broken.

Jacob: Dylan  come on please.

Dylan:I i cant  it its…

Jacob:I need to get the last bags in there come on.

Dylan:What is wrong with this thing  its just closing! Its closed!

y/n:Sorry J.

 I said as the door closed.

Dylan started to laugh and so did Nick.

y/n:That was not nice.

I said as Nick looked at me in shame and then looked at the ground. Dylan however continued to laugh.

y/n:God you two are idiots.

I said as i started to walk away with the sandwich in my hand.

Nick:Y/n wait.

Said Nick as he started to walk behind me.

Nick:Im sorry.

y/n:Dont say sorry to me , but to Jacob.

I said as i set down on the stairs and looked up at Nick.His face was sad and not at all happy as before.

y/n: Dont give me that look im not mad at you.

Nick:Your not?

He said as his sad face turned into a happy one.

y/n:No.But you need to say sorry to Jacob.

As soon as i said Jacobs name his face expression changed.

Nick:Fine.

He said annoyed as he took a seat next to me.

We stayed like this for some minutes not saying anything.

Nick:I will miss you you know when you will leave.

I looked up at him and saw a sad expression on his face.

y/n:Oh Nicknick.

I said as i hugged him with one arm and putting my face in his neck.

y/n:I will miss you too.But we can still call Of course if you still have my phone number.

I said as i looked at him still hugging him with one hand.

Nick:Im never losing that.

He replied smiling as he as well gived me a hug but with both arms.

Nick:But im still ganna miss you.Soo soo much.

He said as his face was now in my neck.I peted his hair as i could hear someone comming to us.We ended the hug and looked at who was comming to us.

Jacob:Okay really love birds? Locking the door on me?

Said Jacob as Nick again looked annoyed.

Nick:Okay in our defense(A it was Dylans idea and (2  it was really funny.

Jacob:Oh yeah right, is that- is that right?

Nick:I dont write the rules man.

Jacob:Okay what ever man are you ganna help me with the begs or not.

Jacob asked Looking at Nick.Im guessing he does not blame me fort he two idiots stupid idea.

Nick:Nah i gatta stay hire and wait for Mr H to return my phone back sorry.

Said Nick but i knew he was not sorry.

I gently hit him on the head and got up from my seat.

y/n:What this idiot wanted to say was that we are sorry for closing the door on you.

I said looking at Nick with an angry face as i turned back to Jacob.

y/n:And dont worry J i will help you with the bags.

Jacob smiled at me as i said that and started to walk to the bags.I gived one last look to Nick and i could see that annoyed expression on his face yet again.

Jacob:Hire you can take this one and i will take the rest.

I grabed the bag as Jacob did the same.

y/n:God its heavy.

I said.

Jacob:Pff oh shush little baby lest get them out of hire.

Said Jacob as we both made out way out of the cabin and to the van Kaitlyn was standing next to.

Jacob:Alright got the bags.

Kaitlyn:Great at least the cutie helped you.

I smiled as Kaitlyn said that.

Jacob:Jup.

Kaitlyn:Welp your ganna have to get used to noone by your side.

Jacob:Oh my god. You are so mean.

Kaitlyn:At least im honest.

Jacob:Oh hire we go.

Kaitlyn:Look your not telling me the whole truth about Emma are you?

Jacob:Oh so im the one not telling the whole story.

Kaitlyn:Well this is the baid i just gotta take Jake.

Said Kaitlyn as i started to laugh.

Kaitlyn:Oh sorry i just got so distracted by that rhyme what we were.

Jacob:Oh nonononono you were telling us how you totally have a thing for Ryan.

y/n:Mhm.

I said still smiling.

Kaitlyn:Wait are we talking about Ryan the sailing instructor with a sexy brooding loner thing  that totally doesnt do anything for me at all?

Said Kaitlyn as we all were now smiling.

Jacob:Uhhh sexy huh?

Kaitlyn :Second hottest at camp by far.

Jacob:Okay sure.

Kaitlyn:Look it was all settled by the girls  in bunk seven like second day of camp.It goes:y/n ,Ryan,me of course, then Dylan, Emma,Abi,Nick and then Mr H  and….

Jacob:Okay you almost finished please?

Kaitlyn:Yep that is everyone.

Said Kaitlyn as i was suprised.

y/n:So im really first on the list huh.

Kaitlyn:Oh please everyone was like little kids obsessed with their favorite toy. Espacily Nick.He is like a love sick puppy.

That made me blush a little but i did not reply.

Kaitlyn:So she really just dumped your ass huh?

Asked Kaitlyn now looking at Jacob.

Jacob:I dont.Okay her whole thing is like, how are we ganna make this work different schools bla bla bla.My whole thing is like you know maybe long distance bla bla bla bla bla, and she was just like »Jacob«.

y/n:She gived you that look huh?

Jacob:Yeah do not pass go.

Kaitlyn:Man shes got you raped all around that dainty  little finger of hers.How does she do it?

Jacob:Well okay maybe your right.Maybe she does have this superpower over me.But you know what.Maybe i like it.

I roled my eyes as he said that.

Kaitlyn:Ohh likes it.Check.Tottaly not in denial.Check.

Jacob:Okay the um the   fumes of-of  jealousy are just stifling over hire.

Kaitlyn:Excuse me?

Jacob:Im just saying.I guess some girls  dont have what it takes to hang out with the big dog.Like this cutie hire.

Said Jake as he puled an arm around me.I knew he was talking about being around »the big dog« as in a friend way.That is why he pulled an arm aound me but i knew for Emma he ment it in another way.

Kaitlyn:Your a reall charmer you know that.

Jacob:Look im just saying i dont know why you did not make a move on Ryan.You shoulda seized the moment.

Kaitlyn:Well cant seize the moment that never happened.

y/n:Hey he is a shy one.You gatta make the moment happen yourself.

Kaitlyn:Oh right chase the moment around all summer like a dog with 2 dic-s untill it dumps you on the last day of camp.

She said looking at Jake.

Jacob:Okay not ganna miss you Kaitlyn…….So are we sure this old rust buckets road worthy?

Kaitlyn:Well take a look.It better be.One night in the great outdoors might kill me.

Jacob:Hey »What does not kill you makes you stronger«.

y/n:You still remember that?

I said with a smile.

Jacob:Hell yeah i do.

Kaitlyn:Well i have not killed you.Yet.And your still pretty pathetic.

y/n:Dont be mean Lyn.

I said as i got in the car with the door open.

Jake:Oh okay so total hypothetical.But if i was a huge asshole and wanted to brake down the van so we would have to spend one more night here.Uh what exactly would i have to do?

Asked Jake as me and Kaitlyn looked at one another with annoyed looks.

Kaitlyn:Well youd probably brake the fuel line..or i dont know rip out the rotor arm.

y/n:And yes that would make you a big asshole.

Jacob:Hey it would help you and stupid head to finnaly get together.

I roled my eyes.Like that would ever happen

Jacob:…..And what does the rotor arm look like?

Kaitlyn:Its like the arm that is all rotary you know under the little black dome…..Jake you do know that even if we did somehow get stuck out hire.One more night with Emma would not change anything right?Trust me.Chicks made up her mind.

Jacob:Yeah.Sure.

y/n:Jake.She is right.

Jacob:Yeah yeah.

I got out of the car and walked back to Kaitlyn.

Dylan:Up hire dudes.

I looked back and saw Dylan and Nick on top of the stairs.

Kaitlyn:Why do they look like they are up to something?

Kaitlyn asked as we all walked closer to them.

y/n:Cus they probably are.

Nick:Hey Jacob.

Nick said with Jakes phone in his hands.

Jacob:Hey dude dont.

Nick:Go long!

Said Nick as he threw Jakes phone at him.

y/n:Nick!

I yelled anger in my voice.What is up with him.

Jacob:Boom.Oh that is it.

Said Jake as he caught his phone.I was happy for him and smiled at him as he did a stupid happy dance.But was still mad with Nick.

Kaitlyn:Freak.

Dylan:Uhh i wish i had some singles.

Said Dylan as he and Nick both came to us.Jake was still doing his stupid dance.

I walked to Nick and again gently hit him on the head.

y/n:What the hell is up with you?

I asked not laud.He looked at me and again he looked sad and just turned away.

Dylan:Hire you go ladys.

He said as he handed me and Kaitlyn our phones.

Kaitlyn:Oh thank god.I mean i get the no technology thing but take me back world.

Dylan:You know you should really just save it for emergencies only.Unlessof course being dumped is an emergency.

Nick:Ha ho burn.

I looked back at him again and he again looked at the ground.

Jacob:Ha well at least i had a relationship this summer.

y/n:Uh hu deamn!Now you two are burned!

I said smirking.

Dylan:Well maybe not everyone is looking for a hookup okay-

y/n:Okay that is enough.

Nick:Where is everyone else?

Jacob:How am i soposed to know that?

Nick: I dont know sometimes you know things i dont.

Jacob:Well.I I dont even know how to respond to that.

Nick:You say »Nick your way smarter then me and your a super hot stud who gets any chick he wants«.

I looked at Nick fora second.So he thinks im a chick he could get?

Jacob:Okay not getting your dream girl so just keep dreaming Junior.

Said Jake looking at me.

Nick:Wha-

I looked at Nick and i could see a bluch on his face as he looked at me.I smiled at him and he stayed like that.Looking at me with a blush.I was the first to look away.

y/n:Hey Dylan got any charge i wanna listen to some good music on the way back.

Jake:And what is good music for you?

Kaitlyn:That french guy?

y/n:No.

Nick:Its that one group that have a song called queencard.

y/n:Mhm  that is the one.

Jacob:And the reword of the guy that knows everything about the girl he likes goes to N..N..Nick!

Jacob said as he had a smirk on his face looking at Nick.

y/n:Well you know nothing about me and you say your my »bestfriend«.

Jacob:Its true.

He said proudly.

y/n:My favorite color?

Jacob:Ahhh…….You dont have one?

Dylan:Its red.

Now Dylan sounded proud.

y/n:And the reword to the fake bestfriend goes to J..J..Jacob!

I said the same way he did before.Jacob just looked at me and roled his eyes.

Dylan:About the charge dont worry y/n i got you.I got full tank of gas so…Oh fu-k me.

Jacob:Pff hahaha.Oh idiot.Hahaha.Eh there is no signal out hire anyways dude.This place is like patchy as balls.

Dylan:Your balls are patchy?

Jacob:What no!

Dylan:Its okay im just ganna get some juice from Mr H before we go.

Kaitlyn:Oh ew.

Just then Abi and Emma came back with some bags.

Emma:Hey y/n.

Said Emma as she placed the bags on the ground and pated me on the head.

y/n:Hey Em , Abi.Where were you guys?

Emma:Wouldnt you like to know?

Abi:Ignore her please.

y/n:You on some thing Em?

I asked as she just said no.

Kaitly:Lets goooo!

Emma:Just gatta get these bags up into the-

Jacob:Oh..Ah hire let .. let me take them for you.

Emma:I can take care of my ovn bag thank you.

Jacob:Wha- Are you sure cus i ca-

Abi:She can take care of her ovn bag thank you.

Emma:We can both take care of our ovn bag thank you.

Now i was annoyed.She knows he likes her why does she play with him so much.

Abi:Oh and this one is yours y/n.

y/n:Thank you.

I said as i grabed my bag.

Nick:Amm y/n do you need help with that?

y/n:Wha what?

I asked as i looked away from Emma and back to Nick.

Nick:Want me to help you with that?

y/n:Oh sure thank you.

I said as i smiled at him.He did the same as he took my bag and started to walk to the van.

Kaitlyn:Hey has anyone seen Ryan?

Dylan:Oh yeah he is probably of being mysterious and alluring somewhere.

Ryan:Im hire.

I heard someone say behind me and as i turned back i saw Ryan.

Kaitlyn:What were you doing under there?

Ryan:Listening to a podcast.

Kaitlyn:What is it about?

Dylan:Yeah what is it about.Is it about me?

y/n:You think he was listening to a podcast about you?

Dylan:Maybe.

Kaitlyn:Hey if anyone hire had a podcast about them it would be me.

Dylan:Yeah if there was a podcast called how to look and smell like a butt.

Kaitlyn:Oh my god your like a child.

y/n:Its cus he is a child.A stupid one.

I said as Dylan pushed me a little.

Nick:Hey man!

We all looked at Nick.He sounded mad and not at all nice.

Ryan:….No …its a paranormal podcast about this place actualy.The Hag of Hacketts Quarry.

Kaitlyn:The who of the whatsit where now?What is The Hag of Hacketts Quarry?

Dylan:You dont know about The Hag of Hacketts Quarry?

Kaitlyn:If i did would ibe asking dumbass?

Dylan:Tell her about The Hag of Hacketts Quarry.

Ryan:I dont think she wants to know about The Hag of Hacketts Quarry.

Kaitlyn:Can we just please stop saying The Hag of Hacketts Quarry?

Ryan:Its just a camp scary story for kids.Its umm..Theres supposedly an old woman who died in a fire a few years back.She haunts the woods looking for her lost baby boy.There are like reports of wispers,or whatever.And this floating figure that floats around.You know textbook  ghost stuff.Some people say that if she catches you alone she willtry to turn you into her lost baby boy.Or kill you or something i donno.Anyways. Hag of Hacketts Quarry.

Kaitlyn:You made that up.

Ryan:Its right hire in the podcast man.

Jacob:Cool story bro.

y/n:Cool?More scary then cool.

Dylan:But no for real you all should have seen the first time he told the story tothe kids.They were scarred.For life.

y/n:You told them that?

Ryan:Well i mean not for life.

Dylan:You gatta be careful with this stuff man.That sh-t is true.

Jacob:Come on dude bullshit.

Mr.H:What is the hold up Hacketteers?

Jacob:Heya.Nearly done Mr.H!

Mr.H:Hop to it!Get thoes butts in gear!

Kaitlyn:Maybe if someone didnt spend so much time trying to impress the ladies  with all his ghost stories…

Ryan:You asked.

Mr.H:Ghost stories?

Dylan:The Hag of Hacketts Quarry..

Kaitlyn:Hey you still have the van key Mr.H?

Mr.H:Well yes i do!....Well.. you know i would lose my head if it was notstuck on me.Back to the office i go..Give me a hand would you Ryan.

Ryan:Uh yeah sure.

Dylan:Yo Mr.H.

Mr.H:Whats up DJ Dylan?

Dylan:Any chance i could get a little charge?

Mr.H:Ah no can do.

Dylan:Cool yeah okay.

Said Dylan as Ryan went after Mr H.We were all silent not saying a word.In some rime Jake walked to me but did not say anything.

y/n:Yo J i like the shirt.

Jacob:Oh thanks.

He said and smiled.We started to talk a bit and i could feel eyes on us.I looked around and saw Nick glaring  at Jacob.

After some time Mr H and Ryan came back.

Dylan:Wait how did you get your phone back beffore any of us?

Dylan asked looking at Ryan.

Ryan:Cus i never turned it in.

Mr.H :You shoul have turned it off before handing it to me Dylan.Thats the rules noob.

I smiled a bit as we all started to walk to the van.

Mr.H:Move it.Lets go.

Jake was the one that started the car but it did nothing.

Mr.H:Whats the problem?

Jacob:Oh dude idont know it just wont.I think something is wrong.

Oh im sure you know what is wrong Jake.I said in my mind.

Mr H:Yeah i can see that.

They started to talk but i did not really hear anything.

Mr H:Okay okay.

Said Mr H as he Jake and Ryan got back to us.

Jacob:Look its not a big deal we will just spend one more night hire.

Mr H :No no!.Just just let me think……Okay yeah your right okay.Hey Ryan come hire for a second.

He said as Ryan walked after him.

Jacob:Guess we will have to stay one more night.

Said Jacob as he walked up to me.I looked at him and roled my eyes.

y/n:You sure this is a good idea?

Jacob:Hell yeah.

Just then Mr H got in a car and drove away.

Dylan:So what was that about?

Ryan:Yo he said to stay inside and not leave till the morning.

Emma:Are you kidding me?

Jacob:Em

Jacob said with a happy voice.

Emma:Are you kidding me!What are we supposed to do?

Ryan:Well we could stay inside like he said.

Dylan:We could go inside.Orrr we could do something else.

Ryan:What are you talking about?

Dylan:No Mr H.No screaming kids.Just us all ready to cut loose and get down with their animal side.

Jacob:Oh hell yeah.

Dylan:P.A.R.T. Why the hell not?

Kaitlyn:Okay okay.

Dylan:One last epic bonfire blowout for all time.

y/n:I dont th-

Jacob:Oh dude!Yeah! Im in ,Nick your in.

Nick:Yeah im in.

Replied Nick as he looked at me almost like he wanted to see if im in as well.

Jacob:Dylan my man is in. Kaitlyn?

Kaitlyn:I go where my people need me.

Jacob:Yeahh.Okay Em what do you say?

Emma:Hmmm yeah im in.

Abi:Mr H seemed pretty insistet to stay inside.

Jacob:He was just trying to scare us.

y/n:Why would he want that?

Ryan:I dont think he was trying to freak us out i think he was freaked out.Cris seemed real serious about this guys.

Dylan:Just say your in man.Its the last night.

Jacob:Noono dude it okay.We get it you know.You dont wanna disappoint your »daddy«.

Ryan:Yeah well someone has to give a shit.You know what i dont even care what you guys do.

Dylan:Ryan come on man wait.

Dylan said as Ryan started to walk away.

Jacob:y/n?

I looked at Jacob and then at the rest.

y/n:I dont know guys maybe it-

Jacob:Come on.

Nick:Its gonna be fun.

y/n:Fine im in.

Jacob:Alright alright.Party planning.Lets do this.Okay first things first y/n and Nick  you go get some wood.Uh Emma and i will go to the store. Kaitlyn and Abi go get the camp ready.And Dylan you just i dont know.Alright lets do this!

[ethernitty]

a little night music

okay i dont know this one so im gonna make up a plot and if it doesnt go like this ill be pissed/hj

im just basing it on the album so i have an outline of the story (not cheating btw) all the paragraphs are like per song cuz thats logical

okay come with me to early 1900s, somewhere in europe, where there is a great party goin on and our two main characters are dancing, lets call them Daisy and Robin, theyre both young women (very important). its a ball and everyones having a jolly good time, dancing, drinking theyre all feeling very gay ;)

then they go to a private place, it feels like it could be a balcony, and they talk bout how they feel bout this relationship and how it would go now later and soon,

now that we know them we get the Glamorous life, we focus on daisy seemingly happily married ,now that its like 1913, oh life's wonderful and i love it all kinda song, while shes preparing for a dinner with an old friend she hasnt seen in a while

the first guest arrives, a handsome gentleman and they have a conversation about that ball and how Daisy must remember this old friend, she doesnt but after some more talking she relizes that its her old lover Robin.

alas the second guest arrives, Robins wife, Robin absolutely adores her and has a whole song bout her, yes the wife knows robins not a "man" but protects this secret with her life.

they talk about their relationships some more reminice about the past as the wife has gone off to bed, idk what happened to the husband maybe hes out, transition to a flashback scene done by dancers of the young Daisy and Robin.

more reminicing bout the gay old days of being in love with a woman, while the dancers portray scenes of the past, this all ends with a kiss thats first one on the cheek but then one on the mouth thats waaaay longer then it should be.

end of act one

a few weeks later and Daisy cant stop thinking bout the kiss, she initated, she relizes how much shes been suppresing herself and how much she dislikes the traditional live and that it makes her die a little everyday.

so she decides to invite Robin and her wife for a weekend out into the country where they talk about their feelings again and how maybe she wants to get away from her husband.

and cuz Robins rich they have a record player, or whatever they used in the day to play recorded music, and they have a nice little dance that is the same as in act one, this is all hapening at night while wondering what will happen when the day breakes and they need to go back to their partners

life goes on and on and eventualy we get to Daisy who is very old now that its like the 70s and the community is starting to come up of women who arent in the traditional life and she thinks how wonderful it would have been to live like that for her whole life.

then as she deteriorates health wise she waits in joyfull anticipation for a chance to be reunited with her lover in heaven, where they will be free of expectations of love

yeah thats prolly not it but it would be a good one

[gabryffindor]

Updating my life

Now is 10/09/2024

Still doesn't get a CLT

I quit Design school

My fam is getting more close now

I am in therapy so... probably things will get better evryday

started a treatment to my alopecia. androgenetic alopecia

now I FINALLY eat fruits (not all of them but hey we need to get easy, one step at time)

I am worried about my future, but evryone saying that I am getting more confident since therapy

Still no friends, but I think I will talk with the ones I used to talk on school

Still teaching child, now I have more white hair than I think

My mom is still taking care of the children, actually they're disturbing my sister right now

I still don't know how I feel inside, sometimes I feel good, sometimes I feel bad

Now I listen to KPOP Specially SKZ

This year my dog got sick, a lot three sickeness together but... she's healing good, I'm just sad that I don't have the money to help her about her musculature, so her chew is still weak. but she didn't die and she with me now, so I'm happy

Her sister is learning to deal with anxiety of separation

Silvio Santos died because of a cold, but your granny is good

your family was together till "São João" but then your dad started working and working all again... That workaholic

My sister and my mom is getting a better relationship, slowly and slowly

If I remember more things who hapenned this year I will talk to you, love Y'all guys!!!

Still have a lot of hope in people, humanity, God, love, friendship even tough when you think you dont

Oh yeah a lot of people said to you, you're beautiful, good hearted, shining soul, and that you didn't change nothing since high school. It'll be seven years this year but because of quarantine still feel like... 5 years I guess. I want to say to everyone feel happy and good take care of themselves, but this post is literally just for me, my updating and for future nostalgia and self-growth but if you're read 'till here. Thank you and you are always welcomed in my little safe, diary/home (idk) place!!

XOXO Love Y'ALL

[book-dragon03]

For @band--psycho A-Z writing challenge!!

Congrats again babe!

Y/N was studying in the library it was late and almost everyone had gone home ,y/n liked it here after dark when everyone else had left, it was quiet and calm unlike the rest of her life ,she came here when she needed peace to think, a place she could escape from everyone and everything else in her life ,a sanctuary .

later into the night y/ns friend Stiles, her best friend showed up ,they’d met their first day freshmen year and clicked immeditely ,stiles was the only person who knew how crazy the rest of y/ns life was outside of these walls, outside the comforting pages of whatever book she’d chosen to lose herself in that day ,he’d always loved to mock her for the fantasises she got lost in.

they’d tried dating their sophmore year but decied to remain friends instead that didn’t stop them from getting together every now and again ,they knew everyting about each other so it always worked between them plus where else can a girl find a guy as kinky as stiles.

‘‘comes on babes we’re going to be late,ive been waiting for you for ages’‘stiles said leaning over y/n.

‘‘do we really have to go’‘y/n winged,they were due at stiles sisters wedding rehersal and it was a 40 minute drive from campus so they needed to leave early to get to the hotel on time y/n wasn’t very happy to be attending considering stiles family never really liked y/n

‘‘yes and shortly so the quicker you get ready the quicker you can get there and have a drink okay babe’‘stiles said lifting her arm

‘‘okay.....okay i’m coming’‘ y/n groned grabbing her bag ad leaving the library.

At the rehersal y/n sat by herself stiles was over talking to his sister,y/n hated being left alone ecspecially at any event his family was at let alone hosting ,across the table y/n noticed some of julie (stiles sister) friends looking at her she knew the sniggers they made understood why they were laughing everyone y/n included knew stiles was out of her leauge and even though they weren’t together anymore their snide comments and laughs always hurt deciding it was better to just leave ,heading up to her room for the night,she’ll just apologize to stiles in the morning.

in her room y/n was debating a nice bath to wash away today when she heard the door knock assumig it was room keeping she decided to ignore it ,knocking again this time stiles calls though to let him in opening the door he knew that look hed seen it before and hated it

‘‘what hapened i turned around and you were gone ‘‘stiles asked worry etched on his features

‘‘nothing im just tired ,sorry fo leaving you’‘y/n sid walking back into her hotel room stiles following behind her and closing the door

‘‘no it’s something else ,what’s wrong please tell me babe ‘‘stiles could always tell when she was lyig ,knowing when he wasn’t going to stop sking till he knew what was up .

‘‘some girls ,your sisters friends i think were laughing thats all im just overeacting ,im being silly dont worry go back to the party ,i dont wanna ruin your night ‘‘ y/n always rambled whe she was upset

‘‘hey listen to me any night spent with you is not ruined ‘‘ stiles said walking closer running his hand up ad down her arm pulling her in by her shoulder to give her a hug

‘‘im not blind stiles ,they’re not wrong ad we bth know it’‘ y/n mumbled

‘‘no we don’t ,i certainly don’t know okay you’re stunning and everyone myself included can see that ad those girls know it they’re jus jealous ,do you even know what you do to me how hard it is not to hve you everytime i see you ?’‘stiles knew she wuldn’t belive words she needed actions moving closer their bodies pressed up against each other

‘‘do you see what you do to me ‘‘stiles whispered in her ear causing shivers to run dow y/ns spine she could feel his erection making a tent in his pants next thig she knows she was kissing him and the rest of the night was forgotten

SEVERAL HOURS LATER

both thoroughly worn out after the night they’d had y/n knew she’d feel this in the morning maybe for the next few mornings if she was lucky but right now all she wanted was to sleep for many many hours but just s she started to settle stiles woke her up by lifting her out of bed and carrying her through to the bathroom placing her gently on the toilet telling her to pee while he starts a bath for her y/n knows stiles is hot but he will always be made hotter by the fact he knew the importance of aftercare for both of them ,getting into the warm bath her muscels definetly appriciated this . after the bath y/n and stiles snugled up in bed and fell into a very deep sleep

[slutfor-fictionalmen]

Perfect

Levi ackerman x plus size reader 

based off of this post; y/n and levi get into a fight

You stretch in your shared bed groaning as you move your sleep-sore muscles and look over at the statuesque man besides you. You sigh as you remember the argument you had the night before and sit up, throwing one of the mans larger shirts over your soft body and stepping into some lounging pants.

“I don’t care if i die! at least i do it doing something useful like actually KILLING the fucking things, not just standing around barking orders, like SOME Bitch i hapen to live with!” His words echo through your mind, causing you to stare out into the distance while you prepare your morning coffee. You remember you only stared at him, your heart hurt, you knew he had just faced many titans and made it out barely alive, the stress was overwhelming on him. Little did you know, he was in pain, he thought about giving up, letting them take him but he fought for you. And then he came home and hurt you. 

Levi laid on his side, staring at where your plush form once was on your bed. He watched you walk to the kitchen, his mind begging him to say something, anything, only to let his body win and pretend to be asleep. You were quiet that morning, he could see your stoic features, you didn’t give him your usual forehead kiss or greet him by asking how he would want his coffee. He knew what he said hurt, and he hated himself for saying it.

“I’m sorry i’m not what you wanted.” He wanted to argue with your response, tell you that he didn’t mean it like that, but he let you walk away, he fed into you both sleeping back to back. He fed into you both drifting to what felt like thousands of miles away. 

Levi’s thoughts were interrupted as he heard a crash and a very audible ‘Shit!” come from you. You look up and see levi enter the kitchen and look back down at the mug that’s in shatters and the blood on your palm. You decide to ignore him standing in front of you as you careful put the large shards in your uncut hand and let him sweep up the smaller ones.

“Are you ok?” He’s faced with cold silence as a response when you look him in the eye and turn away, trying your best to leave any room that he’s in. Tears fill your eyes as you look for the first aid kit, both the seriousness of the situation and the pain of the cut bring a sting to your eyes. Unable to find the bandages you eventually break down, sitting on the bathroom floor and letting the tears flow. Levi slowly walks in careful not to upset you anymore.

Your disoriented mind yells, “Where the FUCK are our FUCKING BANDAGES.” At him instead of what you really wanted to say. With tears in your eyes you watch him grab the first aid kit and cautiously grab your injured hand, and tend to it. Levi’s heart hurts as he watches you break down, he debates comforting you before deciding ‘fuck it’ and holding your plush form close. Your struggle against his arms was short lived when he pulled you into his chest, letting you cry it out before having a conversation.

“I- i just dont want to lose you, i can’t lose you, i’ve lost too many people i loved and i CHOSE you to love, do you know how much that hurts? To choose someone and have them not care if they die? Even almost losing you hurt, it hurt so fucking much, i can’t do that again. Yo-You can’t be so reckless levi..” Your eyes look panicked as you replay in your mind, watching him run straight into a cluster of titans with not a single regard for his own safety. 

Your body ached, levi guided you to your bed, giving you some aspirin and a glass of water. He sat next to you and kissed your hand, from fingertips to wrist, spewing admiration for you. “I’ll be more careful, i promise.” You pulled your hand away from his and moved it to his face, giving him a lopsided smile when he rested his hand on top of yours and turned his head to kiss your palm. His need for touch reminded you of your shared days as a cadet, dealing with the judgemental boys and the bed-ready girls. Levi was the only person you ever felt like you could talk to, his presence calming you from the trying times those three years brought you.

Levi was the only person to truly be intimate with you, of course you’ve had other partners, but none of them loved you as much as he did. Your thoughts were suddenly brought back to your first time with the boy, how a sparring match suddenly became much more lustful than both of you accounted for.

“Remember our first time?” Levi’s head perked up, processing the information suddenly given to him. His flush died down as he chuckled and met your eyes. “If course i do, why are you thinking about that right now though?” 

You lean forward and peck his lips, pulling away before he can react.”I just wanted you to think about the first time you fucked me so hard i couldn’t think.” A furious blush rises to his face as he looks at your smug smile. Shaking his head he goes along with the changing atmosphere, moving to get on his hands and knees, crawling a short distance towards you with a lustful look in his eyes.

You shiver as you look him in his eyes, relishing in this feeling, wishing he was always this attentive to your needs and feelings. You quickly dismiss the thought, giving your full attention to the man kissing all over your face, drawing out the process of kissing your forehead, cheeks, and nose, finally meeting your long awaiting lips.

 You feel electricity as Levi kisses you with love that quickly turns to unbridled passion, his slender hands feeling your plush body, making sure that no part of your body isn’t mapped in his mind. Levi pulls away and sits up, pulling his shirt off his thin body and signaling for you to shed your clothes as well. Doubt briefly fills your mind before you take your shirt and pants off despite it. Levi can only stare at your body, amazed at your curves, stretch marks, and scars. He adores your body, he adores how soft you are and how only he gets to see you in your most vulnerable state. 

His hands wander your body vigorously while your own hands move to the hair at the nape of his neck. Levi’s lips attach themselves to your neck as he gently cups your breasts, his thumbs rubbing your nipples over the fabric of your bra while he nips at the pressure point of your neck. You let out a small moan before he parts your legs with his knee and places himself between your thighs.

You reach behind yourself and unsnap your bra, hearing a groan erupt from his lips before he marks your chest up with lovebites, leaving you squirming under his touch. His mouth moves down, kissing down your navel to  reach the top of your panties. Levi squeezes the soft expanse of your stomach while he pulls your underwear off of your body. His calloused hands holding your soft thighs down while he begins to lick your folds. You buck your hips, attempting to grind down onto his tongue, but his grip prevents you from moving with ease. He teases your clit with his fingers before he inserts one into your wet cavern. “Oh fuck- levi, please, i need more.” He smirks and obliges, stretching you out with two fingers, thrusting and shucking at your plump clit. 

He feels you squeeze around him, knowing that familiar tight band like pull in your stomach was about to break, he pulls out, preparing himself to fill you up. He pulls off his pants and underwear in one go, letting his penis hit his stomach. Mind flooded with lust, you dont have time to admire his body fully, you just impatient waited for him to fill the growing ache, that was longing to be filled inside you. His dick twitched as he took in the sight before him, his beautiful y/n sprailed out in front out him, ready for him to take you.

“Are you ready beautiful?” You simply nod and moan as he suddenly enters you, pushing him to quickly develop a rhythm. You grip at the sheets while he pounds into you, the sounds of skin against skin echoing in the room, the thick smell of sex fuling levi to go on, having you a whining mess underneath him. 

He lifts your legs up, moving you to fuck you at a deeper angle. Your moans increase as he continues to thrust into you, causing friction against your clit. You feel the familiar band in your stomach begin to wind up once again, you know your climax is about to come and you could feel levi lose his rhythm you knew he was about to finish too.

“Levi, i’m so close, baby, please.” His larger frame works at your soft body, unraveling the tight band in your stomach. You cum on his dick before he pulls out and releases his load on your soft stomach. You both relish in the afterglow before levi pulls you both out of your serene state with a single sentence.

“I was a dick, i wasn’t thinking, i’m sorry. You’re perfect and i didn’t mean anything i said….. I promise ill be more careful.”

“I love you levi, don’t pull that shit again, ok?”

“I love you too brat.”

No you guys weren’t perfect, but at least this is a start.

Sorry it’s so bad!!!! this was just a brain farttt

[anne-white-star]

Band queen x reader depressed!reader: Don't do it

Please before you read this x reader

Here is a link to a post with phone numbers to difrent suicide hotlines please stay safe and alive and remember you are important and loved!!💗💗💗

Notes : reader is depressed after her parents broke up her grandma is on her death bed And her boyfriend cheated on her with an other girl. The Queen boys come acros her about to take her own life by jumping of a bridge (takes place in London at the tower bridge) this is just a story and is not acurate takes place during the early years of queen

Sorry for any spelling mistakes

Words: 1287

Warnings : cursing attempted suicide, depression fluff and comfort at the end

(Gif isnt mine)

"What do you mean you don't love me anymore?! Could't you have said that before you cheated on me, its already hard enough for me david, my parents are getting devorced and my grandma is on her death bed!!!!!!"

"Oh its hard for you y/n, don't you understand, im in love with someone els while being stuck with you."

"You fucking asshole, thats it get out i don't want to see your fucking face here ever again!"

"You can't kick me out"

"Yes i can who is the person who is paying for the roof above your head, me! Who is the person working two jobes?, me!, get the fuck out before i break something like your fucking arm!!!"

"You crazy bitch"

"Try me david i fucking dare you, now get out!!!"

"Fine but don't come back to me if you need somone"

Tears streamed down y/n her face "Oh dont worry about that" when david was finaly out the door she slamed it closed and broke down crying.

"Why can't life be easy for me, why everything at once why why why!!!" She stood up And walked to her desk and pulled out a piece of paper and a pen and started to write

Dear person who finds this letter

As i write this its to mutch for me to continue on with my life with everything happening at once.

i don't really know how to get out of this situation other than ending it all.

if anyone finds this letter please let my family and Friends know i love them

Lots of love from

Y/n y/l/n

When she finished wrighting the paper was soaked by her tears, y/n stood up And placed the paper on the coffee table and walked out the front door down the street on her way to the tower bridge.

At the same moment at The Vault 1894 (its a pub near the tower bridge, its just for the story so its not acurate that they went here) a group of friends walked out on their way back home

"I personaly think the gig went extremly wel what about you Fred?"

"Oh darling we were amazing up there"

"My hands hurt a bit i guess i went a bit to hard on the guitar" Brian laught

Roger laught as wel "My head hurts a bit from headbanging to mutch"

"Lets get home for a drink darlings we deserved it" they started to walk over the bridge to the other side

Back to y/n, she had climed on the side of the bridge and stood there just looking over the water contemplating if she should do it or not, the tears started to fall again "im so sorry for failling everyone" and with that she jumped

But before she was to far down a hand shot out and grabed her over the side of the bridge "hold on don't let go!!" Looking up with a tear stained face she was met with four concerned faces looking down in her the man that was holding on to her had long blond hair that went to his shoulders. "Freddie please help?!"

The man called Freddie leaned over the side and grabed her by the back of her jacked "please let go of me im good for nothing please?!" She started to sob more

"Oh darling please let us help you please hold on" he put out his other hand y/n looked up at Freddie and grabed it, both Freddie and the blond man pulled her over the railing safely

"There you go are you alright?"

"It honestly could be better" she said softly with tears down her face while rubbing her arms

"Here take this" the man with the longer brown hair gave his jacked to her, y/n took it and put it over her shoulder

"Thank you" she rubbed her eyes

The man with the curly hair kneeld infront of her "Hey is it a good idea if we go somewhere els and not here it might do you better" he held out his hand for her to take

"A..alright Yes lets do that" she took his hand and stood up

"Iets go to our place for the night if thats alright with you?"

"Its fine with please lead the way" y/n said with a soft voice

The boys kept looking at her from time to time and Freddie hold her hand softly in his, when they arived at The hotel that they stayed the night. Once they arived at The door they let her go in first she went to sit on the coutch that stood in the cornor and pulled her legs up to her chin and hid her face

"I'll go and make some tea fred" said the tall curly man

"Alright Brian" said Freddie, the man called Brian went in to the kitchen to boil some tea

Freddie sat next to y/n on the coutch "now tell me dear what's your name'?"

"Y/n" came the muffled replie

"Well hello y/n, my name is Freddie Mercury, the man in the kitchen is Brian may the blond is roger taylor and the guy with the long brown hair is John deacon but you can call him deaky"

John sat down on the other side of the coutch and rubbed his arm over her back "would you mind telling is whats wrong y/n? What happend we want to help you"

She sniffed "wel i had a lot of crap comming over me the past few months, i have been sufering from depression for a few years now and the past few months its been really going down hill"

Brian came back in the room "here drink this it might help" he held out a cup of tea

"Thank you" she took the cup in her hands and smelled the sweet aroma of the tea

"Would you mind telling is more? If you don't want to thats fine"

She sighed "wel a lot of family problemes have been hapening, my parents are getting a divorce my grandma is on her death bed and my boyfriend cheated on me with an other girl, its just to mutch its al happening at the same time" the tears once again flowed down her face

"Oh dear come here" Freddie hugged her and held her close, she clinged to Freddie like he was going to disapear

"Thank you four so mutch i don't know you guys for that long but you made me feel a lot more welcome the past hour than people did the past year thank you" she dried her tears and sat up straight

"Please stay the night we don't think its a good idea For you to go home just yet" said roger

"thats fine, i don't mind sleeping on the coutch"

"Alright we get you some blankets and a pillow so that you can make yourself comfortabele"

"Thanks Brian i apriciate it"

Once everything was set and put up everyone started to get to get ready to go to bed

"If there is anything you need please wake us don't be afraid to do so alright? "

"Alright thanks deaky thank you all So mutch i can't thank you enough"

"Its nothig dear now go get some rest" Freddie gave her a kiss on the fourhead and all the boys went back to their rooms

"Good night you all"

"Good night y/n sweet dreams"

that night after a whole year of sleepless nights and nightmares y/n had finaly a good night of sleep, she was so extreemly thankfull that they saved her and made her feel welcome.

And then she knew that there was always somone looking out for her

The end

I hope you guys enjoyed reading

And please note that if you have depression or know somone who has it please talk to somone about it and get help you deserve to be happy and you are loved♥️♥️♥️

Please consider rebloging if you like the story and leaving a coment is alright to i would love to hear what you think 😊

thank you all for reading ♥️♥️♥️

[stellarune]

ok but

we all love human aus

and high school aus

so i raise you

elwin, who is the school nurse, and his husband, huz, who is the school therapist

keefe, who has been coming in more and more often over the weeks to see elwin

he isnt injured, or sick, he just. comes in, grab and blanket and sleep on one of the cots

or sometimes on the floor, even though there are free cots

and obviously, elwin is worried, because this 16 years old kid, who he sees everyday because he says hello and goodbye, and sometimes needs a place to hide or an alibi after a prank just. doesnt do that anymore. bot really

he looks exhausted, and elwin has tried to talk to him about it to know if hes sleeping ok, if hes not working himself too hard, but he never got an answer jeefe just flashing him a smile and coming up with some excuse

he wants to help, but hes afraid that if hes just straightforward with him keefe would lose the safespace that is the infirmary and he doesnt want to take that away from him.

one day, keefe walks in, not saying hello, just looking particularily rough, deep bags under his eyes, blotchy skin like hed been crying.

he falls face first into the cot, and elwin can see he isnt sleeping, still.

and he wants to do as he said he would to let h come at his own pace, and all that, but fuck he looks like he really needs a hug

elwin sits down on the cot, and keefe pushes himself up to sit besides him.

"do you want a hug ?" keefe nods and buries his face in elwins chest, who holds him tight for as long as he needs to.

keefe doesnt talk about why this is happening, but from then on, he just goes straight to hug elwin if he needs it (and elwin isnt like,helping someone) (if he is, keefe just crashes on the bed, and elwin comes to see if he needs like, cuddles or something as soon as hes done)

(just. parental elwin ok)

if he needs to be with someone, because on a whim, elwin gave him a key to the infirmary

he hopes keefe doesnt have to use it outside of school, but sometimes you gotta be prepared for the worst, and he still doesnt know exactly what is going on

keefe doesnt talk much about anything when hes in the infirmary, just dozes off so

anyways, he meets lord and lady sencen during the aprent teacher thing, and everything clicks

he runs into them in a hall, while theyre talking about just how bad keefe did that year, only "scraping a 97 in some classes" and he doesnt know exactly what these people have been telling keefe but hes this close to punching them right then and there

he makes a point of letting keefe know just how smart his teachers knew him to be, and that most of them didnt mind him not being in class if he was bored, as long as he did the tests and turned in his assignments, which he did

also how all the pranks that had been pulled on alina had become a running joke amongst them. how she was the only one who didnt know it was keefe pulling the pranks, but everyone else found them hillarious

fintan, bronte tiergan prentice come in sometimes as well

fintan is deseperatly trying to get keefe back on his play, prentice finds keefe to be the only one worthy to talk with him about art, and bronte and tiergan are just here by proxy

(and to keep their husband/brother in check)

(they went to school with keefes parents, and honestly theyre all this close to coming beat thel up in their sleep, but fintan and prentice are just a bit closer to actually dping it)

one day, what elwin really didnt want to hapen happened. keefe was already ther when he opened the infirmary

he could have just come in eatly or whatever, but he was wearing the exact same clothes as the day before

and he knew keefe had friends that would take him in if he asked them to, but he also knew keefe probably didnt want them to know somethi g had hapened

"do you want to caome stay with me ?" he asks when keefe blinks awake.

he didnt really mind keefe sleeping in the infirmary, even though it was proably forbidden by the school or whatever, but the cots were kinda uncomfortable

hes surprised keefe agrees

he drives them to the sencens first, so keefe can grab clothes, phone, laptop, and anything else he needs, then to his place

thankfulky he has a guest bedroom

keefe seriously cannot stop thanking him and he really doesnt need to elwin tells him, he offered after all, and he wouldnt have done so if he didnt want keefe to be there

what was probably supposed to be a few days turns into a month, then two, and honestly elwin doesnt mind (at all)

just, lzt this boy heal in peace

gisela wants to get him back, though, after a while

and she would have the upper land, both legally and emotionally if keefe sisnt just straight up refuse to see her

and she knows she doesnt have that many chances to win a lawsuit if keefe hadnt been home in 2 months and is testifying againt them

so yeah, elwin just recieves a bunch of death threats, but he can deal with that, and he has cameras installed that send a live feed to his friend tinker wjo lives a few states away so he feels pretty safe knowing they wouldnt be able to destroy the tapes

keefe doesnt come in to the infirmary nearly as much these days, and he looks less tired as well

he joins the school play, and prentice reports that hes been using the art room a bunch as well

fintan helps him prank alina again

bonus :

the first time keefe calls elwin dad was as a joke

"okayo daddy-o"

neither of them aknowledge it , but they bith know it happe.ed and honestly they arent mad about it

the moment it really starts to be a Thing for them though, is the next year, at the parent teacher conference, when keefe gives him the invite.

"you know, since.... youre basically my dad now."

"ill be there son"

keefe sends him a 10 hour loop of the "you are my dad" vine for fathers day

they dont really bother with guardianship, because keefe will be 18 the year after, and his "parents" havent tried anything in months

even the threats stopped

elwin definitely walks keefe dosn the aisle

[qweenblonde]

Mean Girls 1 ½: A Beautiful Storm

Join Tiffany as she experiences all the ups and downs of high school, from dealing with crushes to negotiating with a hitman. Will she be able to make it through the school year without her friends finding out her dark secret or will she be forced to switch schools again? Find out in Mean Girls 1 1/2: A Beautiful Storm!

Warning! Contains a few swear words and possible misspellings!

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~Chapter One: Gucci Kween~

Author’s Nut: Heyy this the first fanfction I’ve ever writen! I no it’s not the best but I hope you like it! I already have many mor chapters ritten and i plan on postin at lest onc a weak. Ples fel free to leav fedbac and let me no if thers anyting you want to hapen next in the story!

This was it. My first day at Northshore High. I gracefuly hopped out of my glittery hot pink limo and threw my hot pink bedazled Gucci backpack over my smooth shoulder. I could hardly belive it! As I swung open the doors to the school. I was finaly hear!

I strutted down the hallway, my waste-length platinum blonde hair flowing behind me. I could fell everyones eyes on me. I didnt blame them really, after all I looked absoltely perfect! I was wearing my super sexy lite pink croppy toppy and my super duper cute and sexy HOLOOOO miniskirt that just barely reaches my booty and glitery white high heels.

And let’s not forget about my super cute and super expensive Gucci jewlrey! I had on my diamand gold Gucci earrings and a gold Gucci chain necklace and finallly not one but too silver diamaand wrap rings. All together the jewlery was worth WAY more than the lives of every single person in this school.

My make up was also perfect. Just like me. I had on super cute pink eyeshadow that made my glittering green eyes pop and foke eyelashes along with some cherri red lipstick and pinky blush!

I reach my classroom and walked in. Everyone stopped what they were doong and stared at me. I looked around and could find no empty seats. Suddenly, my aquantince Damian Leigh shoved a readheaded girl out of her seat and onto the florr.

“Yoo-hoo! Tiffany Mariah Lulu Margarita Kitty Swift!”, He shouted, calling me to sit in the now empty seat.

Sigh. I love it when people say my full name. I sauntered over, feeling everyone’s eyes on me. Specifically on my purky butt. I sat down, putting my 3000 doller Gucci backpack on the desk.

“Ohmagod Damian it’s been sooo long!”, I squealed engulfing the hevyset teen in a hug. I felt him smell my hair.

“I know right!”, he shouted.

“Hey there Tiffany”, a voice called out. It was none other than my closer aquantice Janice. She looked pretty scary but she was actuualy fun and hilarious.

“Janice! Hey! How are you doing?”, I questioned.

“Im living, arent I? I think that’s enough” she responded.

“Heyyy, do you have any food?”, I asked cutely, “ I have a case of the mounchies!!”

Suddenly, everyone jumped out of their seats and held out all sorts of different food to me.

“Oh my oh my!”, I blubbled, “Thank you so much everyone!” I graciously inhaled the food out of their hands like a fabulous Kirby.

“Youre ever so welcome!”, everyone said in uneson.

“Hey Tiffy”, a voice purred. I turned to see Kevin G. I always thought he was kinda cutie.

“Oh, hey Kevin!”, I chirped

“Whatcha doing later? Cuz Id love to see that thang up close.”, he smirked and he leaned over, trying to get a peek at my butt.

I gasped in anger. Who does he think he is?! I angrilly grabbed his head and pulled it down towards me.

“Whoa!”, Kevin laughed, “I love a girl who takes charge.”

All I could see was red as rage filled me and I quickly rapped my fingers aganast his forehead and sung out a little tune of incarnattian. Kevin looked at me confused before screaming in pane. Suddenly, he burst into a cloud of gold flacks that gentaley rained down onto the floor. I heard people gasp before rushing over and throwing themselves into on the flor trying to gather up the flakes.

Whoops. I sometimes forget to keep my powers a secret.

You see im not actully a human. I’m actully a fairy! I disguize myself as a human to fit in with everyone else because I think humans are super cool and adorkable cretures! As a fairy, I have the powers to not onlyly kill disrespeckful and evil humans also heal anyone I want! Also I have super cool beautaful wings that change color with my mood and makes me have a hevanly glow around my hole body.

I dont want every one to know that and freak out so thats why I disguiz myself and everyone just thinks Im a normal human and I have magikal hands.

Anyway the readhead girl found a seat on the floor in the back of the room. Class was pretty boring except for the readhead spilling coffe on Ms. Norburry making the teacher end up stripping in front of the super hawt principall. She was trying to upstage me and impress him but I could tell Principal Dammmn wasn’t interested in seeing Mrs. Whatsherfaces boobs especialy since I saw him checking me out earlyer in the hallway.

Class was almost over and I was just sitting theyre checking my nails when I felt a tap on my shoulder. I turned arond only to be met with the most dazzlin eyes I have ever seen. Besides my own of course. They belonged to an unbelievablly hot boy named Aaron Samuels. He was as beautiful as a baby giraffe giving birth to a super hot supermodel. I couldn’t help but gasp a little.

“Hey”, he started,” Sorry to bother you but im having a bit of trouble with this math problem. Do you think you could help me?”

To be continued...

[darthravage]

Why and how does Watcher X help Cipher Nine?

When you meet Watcher X at the Shadow Town which is basically like a open prison you know about him that he feels traited by the Empire. That makes it astonishing that he helps you without any promblems (except the paranoia which caused that he was sent there). It isn’t that astonishing anymore when you find out that he has to do it since he is tortured with headaches when he dosn’t serve the Empire. But you get out by own experience that he is very inteligent when he uses your mission to escape from the Shadow Town. After that you can choose if you want to help him or kill him.  In both cases he is helping you later on when the Republic uses the IX serum against you. (Question in passing why did I need almost two month to find out that IX ist the Latin number for nine what relates to your Charakter?) Since you don’t get a final answer in game I made some theories myself.

First I want to get out how he was able to help you what you can basically seperate into three points.

The first one is that he gets acess to your mind due to the poison and/or implants he gave you when he worked with you on Nar Shadaa. But there is the question why he has done it. If you think you can beliefe him that far he hasn’t had the plan to escape in the beginning of your mission but later on when he saw you work. So it were the implants for sure maybe in a mixture with the poison he gave you in the beginning of the quest.  If this is the truth why has he done it? I can’t believe that he has done it in a good porpuse since he is too cold and calculating therfore so I think he wanted to have an advantage by doing it so that he can defeat you only with the power of your own thoughts. But there is still the oportunity that I think too bad about him. Since he informed you about his escape instead of just hiding from you he must have thought that you aren’t a normal agent and he has experienced himself what happens to people who work for Imperial Inteligence and aren’t like just obeying and nothing else. And that he acts perspicacious is obvious. (That can only be true when Cipher 9 left Watcher X alive because I don’t see how somebody without a body could use such a technique.) And I ask myself why Watcher X didn’t use this technique when I fought against him since it would have saved his life.

The second posibility is that Watcher X became something like a force ghost due to the experiments they did with him. This had enabled him to talk to Cipher nine freely without being concerned about the conditioning.  But that seems unlikely since actually only stron force users can become force ghosts and Watcher X wasn’t capeble of using the force. If he were others would have noticed it or he had used it in the fight agains Cipher nine since it was clear that only one of them will leave the place and using the force would have made it easyer for Watcher X to be that one. 

The third and in my eyes most likely case when you killed Watcher X is that he is only a delusion and the Agent goes mad. In addition to be more realistic compared to being a force ghost it might have logical reasons. First, you can say that Cipher Nine was stressed due to the occurences which hapened and the fact that he wasn’t able to ask anyone for helf even if he wanted to do it. This kind of inner tension makes it more likely to get delusions.  More over, Cipher Nine is enabled to empathize with Watcher Nine. When you killed him than because he knew to much and was a potential danger who got tortured by headaches when he didn’t obey. Now you are almost in the same situation. You know a lot of things which the Republic, which only needs one word to get it from you, isn’t supposed to know. And you are in the situation since the Sith and the minister for Imperial Inteligence distrusted you for helping them and risking your life for them. That is also similar to the story of Watcher X when you regard Operation: Undertow in witch Watcher X fought for the Empire and got punished because of paranoia witch is the responsibility of those who did the genetic experimens. All that causes that Cipher Nine can empathize to Watcher X and maybe has bad conscience about his deed. And together that can cause that Cipher Nine almost becomes crazy and he hasn’t somebody to talk since he can’t tell about his situation even if he wanted since the conditioning makes him say something else when he tries to tell the truth. When you become mad you automatically remember Watcher X since he was mad either and Watcher X was high analytic minded and not loyal to the Empire so you could���n have had a better help for getting yourself free. In addition to that imagine Watcher X gives you the feeling that you don’t have to do anything on your own what can be a great relief either. When you dind’t kill Watcher X leave the part where I’m talking about killing him away the rest will fit in both cases)

But why should Watcher X help you?

The answer can be splitted in why he helped you when you let him alive and why when you kill him (without the dellusion theorie which is already explained).

Let’s start with the theorie that you let him alive.

I think it’s basically a practical thing when you let him alive because Watcher X observed how Cipher Nine fights and dosn’t wat to get into conflict with him for saving his own life. Additional to that he can get a ally against Imperial Inteligence which betrayed both of you. When he keeps his promises now and you are betrayed by Imperial Inteligence you are more likely to help him in secret and it is a very easy chance for him. And I don’t know if you can say it about him but he knows how it feel to be traited what possibile makes him honest when he promises something (except he only promises for building a trap by it). Finally it could be that he is seeking some ways to get his own conditioning away and hopes to find something when he helps you (I mean he can transmit the princip he used for getting rid of your conditioning to get rid of his conditioning)

When you killed him there is still the thing with seeking rvenge in Imperial Inteligence what was only your job since he isn’t able to act. More over, it could be possibile that you almost did him a favour by killing him. I mean like what could he do? He had headaches as soon as he acts against the Empire and it was unlikely that he could get rid of the conditioning of his own.

The intersting and almost ironic thing is that, when Watcher X is really there, he is the only one who can at least almost fulfill his aims. Imperial Inteligence gets abolished what causes that he gets his revenge for what they did to him (be honest I don’t think that the Dark Cauncil is frindly to the former members of the secret service) and since there isn’t like a person who watches what he is doing he can get rid of his conditioning. More over, the only one who works as a kind of Secret Service is one of his allys. And since Cipher Nine didn’t obey when he let Watcher X alive the former Watcher controls the situation. What he also does by being the only one who knows that Cipher Nine got rid of the IX serum (except the minister for Imperial Inteligence if he is still alive). (The part which is written cursive is only important when you let Watcher X alive).

Thinking further

When I looked for inspiration I found a topic in a internet forum a tread which told that the Imperial Agend acutally died when he fought against Darth Jadus. Even though I dont think so it’s an interesting story which would explain a lot of the things which aren’t explained in the game. Like why didn’t i notice that I’ve got the IX serum, how can a young member of the Imperial Intelligence stop one of the most important and powerfull Sith Lords for a while? And it is an additional explanation how I was able to see Watcher X. When we both are dead he musn’t do any efforts to get into the real world and he dosn’t need any power. Another thing which could be used to agree to that theorie is that Lord Alaric (?) tells at the temple of the Sark side that some people don’t notice that they are dead when they die in a trap or someting like that (and Ciffer Nine was the only one on Jadus ship. That agents have no value in the end is something that I musn’t explain...) But there are also things which speak against the theorie. First of all you get to know people who you never could haver have heard of like Hunter and why would you imagine that? More over, nobody could have described Voss to you and you are there. And when you play as a Sith you have to find out conspiracies which are supposed to known by Imperial Inteligece what shows that they to either a rather bad job or they don’t exist anymore. But the first thing would lead to the second thing since nobody needs a organisation which works that bad, especially when war goes on. (Except in one old religion where the number nine stands fror trancendence it has no meaning which has to do with things like dead and that was interpreted too far)

Nevertheless, the story of the Agent contains a lot of things where you never get an answer for. For example Hunter tells you that you are the only one left who is like the star cabal but why? More over, Hunter asks in one part of the game if Cipher Nine could remember the code word which was given to him by Watcher X but it dosn’t appear in the game anymore what leads to the question if it was only a try to frighten Cipher Nine or if it had a deeper meaning. And it was interesting to know what happened to the other people of Imperial Intelligence (although I believe they are dead or soldiers what means basically the same at least after a few time). 

I hope this text dosn’t contain that much misstakes but in the end i had problems by focusing me and I never needed complex English for around a half year. So if you’ve got problems with understanding something or you notice misstakes in my spelling or grammar I was greatfull if you would tell it :)

[snez]

a strange happening

i'm extremely doinked right now so i'm not going to be particularly eloquent but i just wanted to share with you this several-years-old community classic that you may not be aware of called a strange happening. it is like...... something people have been talking about for years.

a very short fic, tucked away in the Adult Board on the forum for over a decade and unearthed in about 2014 by yours truly.

notes: - this is a story about a sneezing vagina. it is nsfw. - i do not condone sexualizing people on their 18th birthday, but i feel like this is so far removed from anything that could ever arouse anyone or resemble reality that i think it's probably okay - it is very bad

A Strange Happening

It was finally Elexsis' 18th Birth Day and she was excited to

know now she could do what ever she wanted and injoy life a bit

more than usual. Today made her feel great cause she would find

out the families secret. As she got up that morning she took a

shower her long, blond, back length hair Clung to her body. Her

blue eyes shinning with excitement, and her fine crurves were

slowly covered in soapy lather and Elexsis soon later was

finished.

As she got dressed into her tight blue geans that hugged her

but and her tank top shirt, her lower half started to tingle.

Elexsis rubed down at her crotch and the tingle soon stopped

within a few seconds. With that she grabed her perfume and walk

out to the dinner table. Her mom greated her and set down a plat

of toast and eges.

"Happy Birth Day Elexsis." Her mother said with a smile as her

mother watched her put salt and pepper on her eges. Her mom got a

worried look on her face and then relaxed to see nothing

happening at all. "So you ready to find out the family secret?"

Elexsis nodded as she shoved her food down her throat, and saw

that she was already going to be late for school. When she finish

she packed her back pack and left with out a good bye or

anything.

Her father came into the kitchen with a yawn and her asked,

"So did you tell her yet?"

Elexsis mother looked down at the ground as she admited to not

telling her daughter a thing. Elexsis father hugged her and told

her not to worry maybe it wouldn't have effect till she got back

home. What Elexsis didn't know was that she like her parents were

alians and their 18th Birth Day is the start of their forever

problem on earth.

Elexsis got to school and as usual every guy drouled over her

walking bye. Her nice furm breast were about the only thing the

guys thought about when she walked by. she would hadly ever wear

a bra and that made them jiggle when she walked alot of times.

Her friend who not only was bi-sexual but had a huge crush on

her best friend called out to Elexsis in thried period. It was

there she was to find out what the secret she wanted to know was

to creep up on her.

"So Happy B-Day Elexsis." Diana said perky and cheerful. Diana

was 5' even and stood shorter than Elexsis who was at 5' 10". She

wore a high tone of musk perfume and it almost made Elexsis gag

for air. Diana's breast were orange sized and her brown hair hung

to her ears. She was okay but that perfume needed to die down.

"THank you" Elexsis said, smiling feeling a tingle in her

pussy. Then she heard it a sound all to familure. the sound of

person about to sneeze.

"Ahhh... aahhhh.." Elexsis looked around then her thighs

movedas the sneeze sounds got louder. "AAHHH...aaahhhh.." then it

released the sneeze. "AHCCHHHOOOO!!" Elexsis felt her pussy

release an amount of jucies from her pussy.

The teacher looked up and told Elexsis to go to the nurses

office. Elexsis did as she was told embarassed and red in the

face. The nurse let Elexsis go home cause she told them she was

getting sick from her mother having the flu.

"So it seems you found out?" Her mother said.

"Yeah what's with my pussy sneezing like that?" Elexsis said

angery at her mother and father for keeping it a secret. "I mean

do you have this problem?"

"Sure do." Her mother said, "If you want i can show you when

we get home."

"But why did my pussy sneeze?" Elexsis asked, not sure if she

could live like this.

"We're alians when we turn 18 our pussies get allergic to

things that would make a normal person sneeze. on our planet its

less of a problem but here it make you get horny as heck and you

ether sneeze till you come or have sex." Her mother smiled as her

daughter laughed. "I'm serious. Do you feel horny now?" This is

not a question for a mother to ask Elexsis felt it was wierd to

talk about.

"It tingles down there and I feel like I must do some thing to

get this building sensation away." Elexsis squented her eyes in

painfull need to cum.

"I know dear. Hold on and let us get home. We're almost

there." Her mother hated that her daughter would no longer live a

normal life.

when they got home Elexsis felt a strange tingle in her crotch

again. "Oh no, not again." the sounds started as Elexsis striped

out of her pants and under wear seeing her pussy lips open and

shut with every intake. "Ahhh... aaahhhh... aaahhhhh.."

"Aaahhhh.. aahhh.. AHCCCHHHHOOOOOO!!! CCHHOOOO!!! CCHHHOOO!!!"

Elexsis felt like she was going to cum now but she didn't.

"Bless you." Her mother said and saw the lust in her daughters

face.

"Thank you." Her pussy answered. "Im glad I can finally sneeze

and talk."

"Mother my p..pussy it talked?" Elexsis was scared stiff and

saw her mother smile.

"I know." Her mother said, "Watch" She stripped and said hello

to her crotch. "Hi"

Her pussy now talked, "Hello. How are you today?"

"Fine thank you. And you?" Her mother asked.

"I can't beleve you kept me from sneezing when you know i had

to. I love to sneeze. You know that."

"I know but Mr. Glad couldn't hear you sneeze." Her mother

said, "We would expose our selve"

"True but his Dog made me want to sneeze so badly and you must

have looked funny rubbing you crotch infront of him."

"You want to sneeze now?" Elexsis mother asked sweetly.

"Please I still feel that dog around hear." the pussy said as

Elexsis' mother picked up the pepper shaker.

"Pepper good for you?" Her mother asked.

"Sure." Her mother got some pepper in her hands and blew it

down at her pussy. "I..I think th..th.. that will do it...

aahhh.. aahhh.. SSSHHHHEEEWWWWW!!! SSHHHHEEEEWWW!!!

SSSHHEEEWWWW!"

"Bless you." Her mother said feeling aroused.

"Th.. th.. thank you AAAHHHSSSHHHEEEWWWW!! SSSHHHEEEWWW!!"

"Bless you again." Her mother said.

"Thank you." Her pussy said.

"Think you can sneeze five more?" Her mother needed it to be

over.

"AAHHH..AAHHHH... SSSHHHHEEEEWWW!! SSSHHHHEEWWW!!! SSHHEEWWW!!

AHSSHHEEEWW!!"

"AAHHH.. aaaahhh.." with each intake the erge got worse to cum

and her daughter watched to turned on to care. "Aaahhh.. aahhh..

AAAHHHSSSHHHHEEWWWW!!!" with that she cane in the chair she sat

in and cleaned her pussy off.

"GOD BLESS YOU." Elexsis mother said to her crotch and put

back on her pants. "That felt good."

"so I have to find out what my pussy is allergic to?" Elexsis

said scared and not knowing what was hapening.

"Excactly." Her mother answered as the door bell rang.

It was scot a football player that every girl wanted and he

was at her door. "I can't believe it." Elexsis got dressed and

answered the door. "Hi"

He had on a muscle shirt and his blue eyes turned her on so

much her nipples started to get hard. then it happened he had

flowers for her and walked in side the house.

"Hi. Are you okay i heard they sent you home." Scot said,

"These are for you." He handed her the flowers and then felt the

tickle in her crotch again. It was going to sneeze again and she

was already turned on to the point of no return.

"Thank you." Elexsis said. blushing.

"AAHhhh... aaahhh.. CCCHHHOOOO!!!" Scot saw her body fly up

with the force of the sneeze and then knowing it was coming from

her pussy.

"Was that your your pussy?" Scot asked studdering and some how

turned on from the sneeze.

"Yeah you know it was to." Elexsis answered and felt so turned

on it made her want him more. "You think you can message it for

me if it tries that again?"

"You bet lets go to your room." Scot grabbed her hand getting

hard as a rock from the sneeze. Sneezes always turned him on but

from a pussy it got him big time.

They entered her bed room and with out the flowers the sneezes

died down. Scot layed down on top of her as a cat entered the

room and Elexsis' pussy opened and shut with every intake.

"Aaahhh.. aaahhhh.. aahhh.." Scot rubbed up and down

Elexsis'pussy and the sneeze stopped.

"You think you could hold them in?" Scot said to Elexsis and

let go. "Try."

Elexsis knew she had nothing to do with this and saw the cat

getting closer, and taking steps toward her pussy as the sneeze

got stronger. "Aaahhh.. aahhh... aaahhhhh.." Then the cats tail

was rubed up against Elexsis' pussy.

The erge got stronger and Elexsis got the impulse to take Scot

and have him enter her before the sneeze took control. His hard

as rock penis entered her and held the sneeze down only a bit.

Then opening and shuting of the pussy got to him so much he felt

as if he would cum soon. the cat layed by them and its tail

swished around Scot's erecasion making him want to cum more and

the pussy want to sneeze.

"Aaahhh.. aahhh.. aahhh.."

"Dont sneeze." Scot said.

"aahhh.. aahhh.. AAAAHHHHHH.... CCCHHHOOOOOOO!!!" Elexsis came

with the sneeze and Scot fallowed at the same time both satisfide

and tired as Scot left and Elexsis mother entered.

"Was it good?" Elexsis smiled and nodded her head with a sigh

of relief and her mother smiled, "Don't let your father know

okay" With that her mother left the room to leave Elexsis to her

ecstasy.

[roxe-kun]

Why do you think people tend to deny any relationship between Levi and Mikasa, even if it's not romantic?. Sometimes it makes me think that there is an authentic fear for rivamika, as if it were something like "You have been told not enter to that door because behind there are a thousand ghosts stalking you, so you blindly believe it and fear it forcing yourself again and again to believe that there are eventually ghosts without any prove" LOL

I think this is not only exclusive to rivamika. It happends in every ship.Big ship fandoms only consider their ship as true one and if you take Levi out of that relationship, you will get hate (not all people, of course!!). I will only talk about Levi now since nowdays, the hate comes from ships with him (but hapened with Mikasa too and her ships :,D).  This is something that happen a lot of times, and for rivamika, it was “easy” to find how to leave hate. That´s why they use the pedophilia and incest thing (even is has 0 coherence and its fiction, we dont do any harm to anyone). The same happens in ereri, I think. They use to get hate cause “pedophilia”, and totally forget that ereri is one of the big ships too, ever since snk started in 2013, and has lots of artist and writers in there. But they totally forget about them XD

Also, in otakurepublic, they talk about doujins sales and rivamika is top 5 :,D  https://otakurepublic.com/blog/entry_545.html So it migth be small fandom, but have supportive people.(idk how this post is focused or how reliable it is, but yey I loved reading it and find my ship there XD)

[frunatic-fanfic]

the end of a dream ?

Hell yes, A NEW CHAPTER FINALLY

To everyone who is still reading , thank you so much ! I know it has been a while but I’ll update more frequently now. There’s no John in this chapter but he’ll be back soon, I promise <3 Enjoy and leave some feedback to keep me motivated :)

„ No it’s fine really. I dont need to talk right now or anything. I just want to take a shower and sleep and forgett about everything for a while“ While you speak these words your best friend Rony looks at you with a worried expression on her face , knowing that the Jolene shes been a friend to for over 12 years is again just trying to run away and surpress her sadness and anger just to hurt herself once again even more.

After a last minute flight from west to east coast and feeling trapped inside a plane packed with just all of the very few things you owned, you made it to New York City and got picked up at the airport by your best friend Rony who moved to new York to start a carreer as a designer here.

„ Jolene… what the hell hapened? Just talk to me for a minute. I mean… YOu called me this morning sounding like you were actually panicing and 8 hours later youre standing in my aparement, looking like Ozzy Ozbourne from the mascara dried all over your cheeks. I mean I get that you want to sleep but so do I – the thing is knowing my best friend must have gone through some insan shit to step into a plane to travel to New York so fast must be serious. Just give me a hint at least.“

You sob again and wipe away some fresh tears coming from your eyes. All you see in your head is John standing in front of you in that supermarket , mumbling, stuttering, but really – not saying anything that could help you cope with that feeling of being left, of being „not enough“  of being… just something that could  be replaced by something better anytime.

„well…it’s just… John and I broke up…“ „Wait…you mean THAT John? John Frusciante eh? The time you were at the hospital we didnt really have a lot of contact and that time was a mess here too, moving from california to NYC is hell, … Im sorry I wasnt there enough for you! But i did get your letters and well, Kevin used to listen tot he Red Hot Chili  Peppers a lot so of course that name wasnt a strange one to me. Oh man, Jolene had tu bump into a lost rockstar for sure…“ „ yeah… I wish I hadn’t…“ „Did he do anything bad to you?“ „No,…I mean Rony I… I was seriously so in love with him, the time we spent together in rehab felt like a dream. The both of us got better and the more time we spent, the more it felt like we didnt really need there bad, self destructive habbits anymore. It was unsure how our relationship would go on after our treatment there but at that point, it felt like it was sure we’d stay togehter….and…“ You start crying again as you think of John hugging you and kissing you when you first met again with Flea down at Venice Beach. „ well, through all the time I thought we could be together and I had finally found someone to be with, to look after me, someone I could be the center of his life for but….“ „Wait Jolene. Stop for a second. He is John Frusicante. And well, we all must have heard the news by now, he’s back in the band and they’ll have a big comeback later this year. I know how much you’re longing for that one person centering his life around you but I dont think that would be a healthy relationship for either the two of you and… it definitely wont be a rockstar on the rise…“ You see your tears fall onto the wooden floor of Ronys flat while hearing her words. Of course. Sure she was right. That childish naive wish of being the reason for someone being alive was just irrational and impossible to be true. Yet you had been holding on to it for so long. Maybe because for you, many times in your life you didnt feel like you wanted to be alive – you just kept on existing for other people.

 „Hey…Ill make us some ginseng tea and we’ll sit down on the couch and talk for a bit. I understand that you’re feeling a lot of pain right now. You feel left behind and like you were not worthy enough to someone you loved to let you stay the one thing with the highest priority in his life. At least you think and feel like that. But come on. You’ve learned a lot in therapy. Your habbit of seeing everything in either black and white, the fact that youre always clinging onto a person you love and never want to let them go, make your whole life depend on them like they’re god… We both know where these feelings and behaviours come from, right?

„Are you talking about that… Borderline Personality Disorder I got diagnozed with?“ „We both know. Look, I cant fully understand what ist like to be you, with that mindset of yours. I dont know what its like to feel all these waves of anxiety about being left alone and not good enough to be loved. But these things combined with that strong sense of envy you get everytime someone does not pay all their attention to you will make you unable to have a happy relationship forever. I dont know the full story, but seen from a rational point I think ist great that John joined the band again. You told me in your letters how passionate he looked when he was playing guitar. You wrote in one of your letters that it seemed like he was drifting into another dimension while playing for you. And now that man has made it to recover fully. He’s back in his band and can do what he loves the most. Isnt that something you would wish for him if you really loved him?“

 All the while Rony was speaking to you, you couldnt say anyhting. She was so right. Your head always kept messing with you. Growing up with abusive and alcoholic parents that never showed you even a little hint of love you kept searching for that love in every relationship you ever had- clinging onto your partner, manipulating him and controling him to make sure he couldn’t leave – and of course, these things would always make you end up alone.

 „Did John have the chance to say anything about this? I mean If you spent some time togehter before you all of a sudden descided to come here, he sure must have had an own point of view about the whole thing?“  „yeah… he…He tried to speak but I wouldnt let him.. I just ran..away..“

Rony facepalmed herself. „ Thats so classic you. I love you, you’re my best friend . But not giving him a chance to speak,not fair.“

It hurt to talk to Rony about all of this because it made you realize that you overreacted in an irreversible way. Looking back now, your reaction was far away from any logical, ratioanal thing to do and just a typical , impulsive and panic „solution“ to a problem that you had made out in your head.

 „We cant do much about all of this now Jolene. Im glad you descided to come here instead of doing some bad shit to yourself again. Kevin and I broke up so there’s one room free here. If you can help me with the rent you can stay as long as you want.“ „wow, i Have like no money at all at the moment“ „yeah.. you’re in new york. We’ll get you a job somehwere. We’ll get through this.“

 As you lay down in the bed Rony had prepared for you , your best friend sits down on your bed for moment again looking at you „Heads up girl. We got this.“ „ Do you….do you think John and I will ever meet again? It feels wrong seeing it end like that but…“ „He’s a rockstar. I guess you’ll just have to turn on your TV“ „Thats not what I meant…“ „I know you idiot.“ Rony laughs, but imideatly realizes that jokes are no good idea right now.

 „ I hope you can maybe meet again. But for now, let time pass. You’re in New York now and he is in California. Maybe you should give up these california dreams for now. We’ll find you a job and maybe a good therapist. And thats really all that matters now. You, being okay.“

 Before You fall asleep you keep on seeng John in your head. The shock in his eyes. Like he knew how much he’d hurt you. Looking back now,it didnt seem like he looked like he got ‚caught‘ but more like he was worried about you and how seeing his face on that magazine would make you feel. And the moment he tried to say something…you just cut him off. You didnt give hime a chance to speak…. What if.. what could have been….

 No. Give up your california dreaming for now, Jolene.

[lilietsblog]

GHOST TRICK: THE BIG FINALE

so I finished the game yesterday all on my lonesome without internet

why yes I am perfectly fine and not emotionally compromised in the slightest

enjoy my screaming

IT'S GHOST TRICKING TIME which is to say it's ghost tricking time without internet so I'm doing this in wordpad tumblr really needs an 'import rtf' function >_>

SO from what I remember, when last we left off I was about to try to figure out how the fuck a knitted cap and a helmet are going to help me stop a bullet LET'S DIVE RIGHT BACK INTO THIS FOLKS

I still love how Sissel just ignores the dog's little 'WHATS A HOSTAGE O NO' instead of digging into explaining it

oh thank god the game DOES remember ive read this text before

...oh, I forgot how I did this the last time O WELL

all right, so I remember swiveling the lamp and dropping the hard hat, then when the knitted cap is over here I can swap it with the book and get it on the hook but how did I get the knitted cap over here

aha, he looked away for a moment, the helmet part is done what the fuck do i do now

AHA okay, so now i very quickly cart the ladder back and forth, I think I remember this

fuck, he noticed me, okay don't swivel the lamp while he's watching, swivel it while he's still looking away

I gotta note the 'I don't know why you're wearing my face' part HMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMM

fuck, nope, I can't swivel the lamp back at that moment because he notices it clattering and turns right around FUCK OKAY LET'S TRY TO DO IT WITH THE LAMP THERE

ugh, if only I could do shit during the cutscene while he rolls away >_>

OK I SHOULD HAVE HAD MORE TRUST IN MISSILE HE IS GREAT AND A VERY GOOD DOG AND CAN AIM FOR SPLIT SECOND TIMING OF A BULLET BEING IN THE AIR OKAY

haha, and the knitted hat still hit Cabanela with enough velocity to knock him over I love this and I particularly love his dramatic leg up in the air he doesn't evne know what's happening he just aims to be the most dramatic possible at all times and it's really helping us out <3

'i love knitted hats... so warm, and most of all, so SOFT' <3 <3 <3

god Missile is so good this is pain IS THE DAWN DEADLINE A LIE MAYBE DID RAY JUST SAY THAT TO GET SISSEL'S BUTT MOVING I DON'T KNOW

oh yeah Cabanela's still got broken bones all over I kind of forgot about that

oh ok, looks less like broken and more like just really fucking bruised, becuase in that movement he's put pressure on all limb bones and nothing bent out of shape, so that's good

lmao and Cabanela's just like 'BUT IF I WAS KILLED IN THAT EXPLOSION THE SITUATION WOULD HAVE BEEN BETTER' I I don't think it would necessarily work out that way, considering how much difficulty our protagonist was having saving just the professor :x

oh hey we've got our next source of information! should be quite a wellspring if Sissel remembers everything he should ask

yeeep Cabanela you FUCKED UP

oh, the gun :x

HON IM PRETTY SURE THE FIRST PART IS MORE IMPORTANT THE PART WHERE YOU TRIED TO SCARE THE SHIT OUT OF HIM CORNERED RATS BITE THIS IS COMPLETELY AND UTTERLY YOUR FAULT, ALL OF IT

aha, those cases, okay

and Cabanela was doing the thing because of Jowd that makes sense -_- kind of

yep, that one little snag kind of puts a question mark on the whole thing alright, that almost makes sense? kind of? makes Cabanela kind of a selfish butt doing this for his own obsession rather than for personally Jowd but makes sense

ok, the bringing him to justice minister to buy time thing actually does make a lot of sense it wasn't A LOT of time that he bought but it was just enough and that's what counts

oh hey, this guy used to have the job that the blue fake stole? (and yeah sounds like blue guys are just foreigners -_- bc they couldnt find spies that didnt stand out visually or anything)

hum not a scratch, huh regenerating dead body, okay

oh come ON Sissel don't be surprised now that part was obvious from the moment he said the corpse disappeared the meteorite's radiation, okay, quite interesting :D

"it was like a meteorite had struck me on the head" so, has that been a cause of death today yet, because if it hasn't, this looks like foreshadowing -_-

hum, so the gun would have been loaded because he controlled Kamila, which she then wouldn't have a clear memory of makes sense

HI LYNNE JUST IN TIME

arrest her to keep her safe, that actually makes perfect sense IF ONLY IT HAD WORKED LMAO no wonder pigeon guy roasted him for that in the deleted timeline XD

"while he was at it" <3 <3 <3

awwww pigeon guy was friends with him too <3

hee right on top of his striped jumpsuit honestly he looked less escaped-from-prison-ish in the paint-splattered robe thing XD

a present, huh?

awww see Sissel you don't feel lonely and that's what counts

ALRIGHT THEN :D LET'S FUCKING GO :D AND, UH, DO SOMETHING, I GUESS I love how out of proportion Sissel's powers are rewind time, talk to dead people... and move small objects a little

so, uh, Sissel, are you sure there's answers for YOU over there or did you just get into habit of telling this to yourself to feel better

okay well how the fuck did Jowd infiltrate a fucking SUBMARINE like, I just want to know the physics of how this happened?

omfg the bullet had a radio transmitter well, I have a newfound respect for Cabanela, I gotta admit like I already respected him but I just figured he shot the guy out of a desperate 'can't do anything else might as well try this' urge to do SOMETHING but nope he had a plan (which would have worked even with him dead)

wow, and he actually gave the thing to Jowd beforehand n i c e

wow, okay, that's stealthy

aha, and he can totally leave his body and wander around freely I think that was already confirmed but it's nice to know for even surer

wow, okay, what the fuck re: that thing reaching up from below that definitely looked like... something else for a moment there 0.0

aand okay the meteorite is possible to extract from his body I wonder if evil!Sissel actually knew that... or if that actually did anything to him :D

okay, what the FUCK and how many more people are dead now

AWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW MISSILE IS HERE TOOOOOOOO

the phone is ringing, how convenient :D

ooohkay this is tricky

so, why the fuck were there baseball and basketball balls hanging in nets under the ceiling on a submarine ... ... you know what I don't want to know

wait, Kamila can't hear him? oh, right, over the phone ghosts communicate by close range telepathy

aaand this makes the FIFTH time Lynne's dead tonight! or is it sixth? did i lose track somewhere?

AWWWW THIS SCENE IS LIKE AN OVERDOSE OF CUTE

'i wonder what happened THIS TIME' yep lmao

no actually 'i dont remember what happened after that' sounds like evil!Sissel to me, personally

but do you know what this wheel does Sissel are you sure turning it is a good idea

"I just sort of blacked out, the next thing I knew, I was dead" <3 <3 <3

"now it's all making even less sense than before" AND THAT'S SAYING *SOMETHING*

but actually okay yea this does kind of sound like an explosion that killed Lynne and knocked Kamila out

aaand nope I was absolutely correct )=

can this guy only puppet one body at a time? couldn't he have just possessed Lynne and had her slit her own throat or shoot herself or hang herself or something? that sounds a lot more productive than having a little girl fight her I mean, even if he only can puppet one body at a time, puppetting Lynne would have been a lot more productive overall, is there a reason he can't?...

or does he just love to do things in the most convoluted and roundabout manner typical to villains everywhere -_-

"nobody ever calls the dead" ARGUABLE a number of phone calls has been made this night specifically for the purpose of putting our!Sissel on the line

aand okay :D looks like the blue assholes saved Lynne just in time, sort of ...for a certain definition of 'saved'

so anyway this guy said something like 'you cannot possibly comprehend my suffering' so it would be funny if he was just a random dumbass that a bad thing hapened to one (1) time, which granted also killed him, but all the misery since then has been of his own making and he's put every single person involved in the events through worse just over the course of tonight, and simply has no sense of scale, perspective or proportion I think that would be great if the story went there XD EDITOR'S NOTE IN RETROSPECT: the story didn't go there and that was not fucking okay (it's dead women in the fridge again!)

and Sissel can't understand revenge as a concept SOUL TWINSIES WITH ME OR WHAT

lmao Lynne is starting to get touchy about how many times she's needed rescue lately XD

OH FOR FUCK'S SAKE WHY CAN'T I REACH FOR ANYTHING YET also, interesting to note that in the 4 minutes ago past, neither Lynne nor Kamila have a core looks like Sissel's interaction with this realm is limited after all, and not only by phones there's v interesting existential fuckery going on here, of the exact sort I ABSOLUTELY LOVE

oh THERE we go 'nobody ever calls the dead' ARGUABLE again and I love Lynne's signature instant-snap-into-hands-over-head animation + pose Good Reflexes

ALRIGHT, FIDDLING WITH RANDOM SHIT WITHOUT KNOWING WHAT IT MIGHT DO TIME ...and that sure worked fast

hum, a random mechanic, alright

oh hon that's a, um, what's the opposite of exaggeration I know this word in Russian >_> over...littlification? that 'restless ghosts onboard' THAT'S ONE WAY TO PUT THAT

lmao that was one odd fate change

alright, found the temsik fragment capsule, I see yay unexpectedly strong wastebucket lids (seriously, that's a whole freaking basketball, there's a reason the nets worked like that lmao)

alright, just watching the cutscene for now, that's fair this guy sure looks like he's going to abandon his entire crew and blow up the sub or something

"farewell, sir" WELL THAT DID NOT SOUND QUITE RIGHT

alright, and we're left in the capsule rather than the fragment which apparently did not have a core of its own for some reason

OMFG THERE'S A LITTLE RAT IN THE TORPEDO ARE WE GOING TO HAVE A RUBE GOLDBERG MACHINE INVOLVING A SMALL RODENT AGAIN BECAUSE THOSE ARE THE BEST KIND BUT ALSO THIS IS NOT HOW TORPEDOS WORK BUT ALSO HI RAT!!!

yeah exactly thanks Sissel! how the FUCK did it get here also I love that the characters DO pay attention to the wellbeing of innocent rats in this game <3

well, you COULD just try to get it to blow up earlier, in the water you'd be stuck but you'd be heroes, or something well, Lynne would go back to her body, Sissel would be stuck :D oh, and the rat would die, that's the bad news

YEAH LET'S SAVE THE RATTIE FIRST if this time the rat is going to be in the way rather than helping, well, I REALLY DO RESPECT THAT LET'S SAVE THE RAT

alright, after some trial and error I DID manage to get both weights in the same position (mostly by luck) and throw off the rat NOW TO SAFETY

alright, this looks promising OKAY IT ALSO LOOKS LIKE KAMILA AND LYNNE MIGHT BE SAFE FROM EVIL!SISSEL NOW THAT'S GOOD NEWS

yusss caring about rats ftw <3

that's what missiles do, huh they're unstoppable i dont know who it is i hear there but Missile is great yes

well, whatever this is, our!Sissel just turned it on maybe it's pumps to remove water!... not that they'll do much against an unplugged breach but

aha, okay, won't move for long

this movement through a machine's gears feels like the purest expression of the game's premise since the junkyard tricks at the very beginning <3

the way Kamila's speech kinda fades in from white? that worries me

...eeeyup

god but I love this game's animation. this little one of Lynne hoisting Kamila up on her back? it feels, like, PERFECTLY balanced with their weights and Lynne's strength and everything <3 <3 <3

oh my god Lynne why couldn't you just... be able to swim not that it would help much with Kamila unconscious but

oh my god Lynne is literally right here why do I still have trouble moving around freely???

oh, found it!

wow, she's climbing one-handed while carrying Kamila, that's some serious upper body strength <3

W E L P

YEP THAT'S SOME SERIOUS STRENGTH THAT SHE DIDNT JUST FUCKING FALL NOR DROP KAMILA

yeeep okay WOW

ARE YOU BOTH GOING TO DIE NOW OR WHAT okay, no, just fall, and not even in the water that's good news

LYNNE THIS IS NOT A POSE YOU WANT TO BE IN RIGHT NOW unless you're actually holding yourself against that shit in the background with your left hand and I just can't see it I guess

...nope, she was holding her chin LYNNE NO

MISSILE HURRAY

okay, the fan thing makes sense

now to swap around a bunch of broken pipes so they don't get in lynne's way, got it

FOR FUCK'S SAKE I REALLY DON'T SEE A WINNING COMBO HERE

aand I fucking lost but at least I got Sissel in position -_-

alright, now with one pipe turned off it actually works out easily it just... took me really long to realize I'd need Sissel for this one -_-

Lynne honey but have you considered: you have no fucking clue what's behind that door although presumably submarine has only been breached in one place and it's this room?

holy shit with the hook Sissel managed to hoist the combined weight of Lynne and Kamila now THAT's a nifty trick

SISSEL FOR FUCK'S SAKE SHE CAN'T MUSTER LEVERAGE FOR THIS BECAUSE SHE HAS TO HOLD HERSELF AND KAMILA UP AND SHE'S TIRED SHE CAN ASK FOR HELP EXCLUSIVELY IN SWAHILI SWEARS AND IT'D STILL BE A WAY THAT YOU HAVE TO PUT UP WITH

aww, someone's saving us!!!

someone who commented on unstoppable missiles earlier, perhaps?

right, the truth... that's still relevant. while on a sinking submarine. yep

haha sinking submaries i have just been playing oxenfree haha

oh wow that's an improvised mechanism made out of garbage sticking in a close range telekinetic field nifty shit

oh oh okay that explains absolutely nothing evil!Sissel is not evil now, or what?

lmao this is getting more confusing, but like... in a very satisfying way <3

evil!Sissel still seems to have SOME amount of powers, at least, though possibly not the manipulating humans ones? but this amount of telekinesis is still incredible

so okay our Sissel's name possibly IS Sissel, but this dude's isn't I'm more confused than ever before I doubt there are three of them, so...

ahh, Lynne making Kamila more comfortable <3 <3 <3 and again, animation is fucking excellent. just, the timing of everything? it's better than 90% of all 3D animation I've ever seen in games

power and time, okay, got it so the dawn deadline IS real, just not for him wait, possibly not for Sissel and Missile, either?

I see he still fell in his signature ridiculous pose it's less funny now, overall

ah, okay, so the time effect is different too it seems to have been the same for Sissel and Missile though? is this a personality powers deal?

I love that Missile is perfectly comfortable with weird shit because as a dog, that's about the amount of understanding he has of his everyday surroundings, too <3

oh, hum so the moment this guy actually 'died' is the moment that blue guy took out the fragment?

wipe out everybody, huh

okay, so the shooting is as we knew, kind of

the first shot missed the mark, huh? quite curious, quite curious stray bullets are known to be deadly :D

alright, so that's a conversation that mostly confirmed what we already knew we have a new ally though, sort of

aand Lynne's empathy saves the day -_- like I said earlier, this guy's feelings aren't like... unique or anything, he just sucks at theory of mind

Kamila!!! so hey kiddo this guy in front of you is the guy who killed your mom

anyway, I'm still pretty sure Sissel hadn't yet introduced himself to you when you started calling him "Sissy" so there's that lead

and Kamila makes herself comfortable <3 I love this Little Lady so much <3

AWWWW THE RADIO THING <3 <3 <3

'and what about a torpedo' WHAT ABOUT A TORPEDO LYNNE THIS SOUNDS EXTREMELY UNSAFE

KAMILA ARE YOU KIDDING ME YOU'RE TOUGH AS FUCK

OMG IT'S A GRAPE SERVING MACHINE I LOVE THE LUXURIOUS FUCK THIS WAS MADE FOR

alright, torpedo room, that works

swap  the switches to get them unstuck!!!

so I'm going to guess everyone there died, too, and Sissel's going to have to prevent that, too that makes perfect sense

that 'understand exactly how he feels' thing our!Sissel and evil!Sissel are really fucking different in this particular respect :D

awww and the girls convince the doggo <3 <3 <3

so, does Kamila know about the dawn deadline for all ghosts, or

oh thank god I didn't need to control that hop this game really has a policy of not having a permaloss option <3

Yomiel, huh so that's his name

alright, and 'Sissel' is an alias ...I'm just going to keep using it for the protag, just to make things slightly less confusing

ah, so this guy had access to national secrets, and that's how he did the singer thing

and he was proven innocent offscreen <3 <3 <3 stylish

stylish animation, nice

didn't help anybody? did you ever try? because our!Sissel sure figured that shit out quickly

welp, the blue guys are assholes but then, they were also kind of dealing with an asshole I can imagine why they didn't think he was reliable to deal with :x

awww, I like the leaflet guy so much <3 <3 <3

I love how Jowd's like 'well, I'm dead, are you happy now' and Sissel's like 'so anyway about that' FUCK death not tonight, not when Sissel's here <3 <3 <3

alright, and this guy's a robot that still doesn't quite he's pretty human-like >_> I am not a fan of the blue guy in charge is all I'm saying also lmao I nicknamed this one 'iron man dracula' i didn't mean it that way but

ah, remote-controlled, alright that 'farewell' was odd then

'your country's use of technology is just plain off' I LOVE THIS

could there have been two pieces of meteorite in this guy's body? okay, nope still!

OH WOW FOUR MINUTES BEFORE HIS DEATH THAT'S THAT'S ACTUALLY EXACTLY WHAT I WANTED FROM THE VERY BEGINNING EVEN THOUGH I THOUGHT THIS BODY BELONGED TO THE WRONG 'WHOM' THIS IS SOMEWHAT MORE AMBITIOUS THAN PLANNED BUT

...okay, no, his 'death' would actually be before the control room was launched, not all those years ago STILL THIS IS THE -EXACT- THING

alright anyway this is plenty of buildup WHO THE FUCK IS OUR PROTAGONIST it's funny how so far absolutely 0 of what we've seen has pointed to that I have plenty of odd thoughts in my mind ofc 'that guy from another point of time' being the prime one as a homestuck, the possibility of there being multiple ghosts of the same person doesn't faze me in the slightest in fact it seems like an intuitive conclusion BUT THEIR PERSONALITY SURE IS DIFFERENT

anyway, :D :D :D

Final Chapter

...aha! so it counted ten years ago after all! dang :D

aha, I see that mascot thing I see baby Lynne!!!

I note how for someone threatening to shoot the kid, Yomiel's gun sure is pointing in the wrong direction AND he's holding out the kid to the side, not between himself and Jowd SOMEONE sucks at hostage taking lmao

a kitty, huh

and then a meteorite, okay

I note the lamp

awwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww Yomiel is thinking 'so maybe I'll die in another way and all this will have not happened, that's a better outcome anyway' isn't he god his faces are Sissel faces and look this game knows EXACTLY what it's doing with its visuals exactly one facial exression of Yomiel's has not matched Sissel's I doubt it's because of lazy artists

alright, so a good plan would be swapping the mascot and the lamp

but seriously, WOW Yomiel sucks at taking hostages this game's animation is always stellar and brilliant, there's NO fucking coincidence there he was absolutely not willing in any way to put baby Lynne in actual danger, even if he pretended he did and it worked on Jowd

anyway how the fuck do we get to the lamp

'we can talk about all this later' ARGUABLE TBH the entire, like, THING is going to change oh man is everyone going to go back to their bodies 10 years ago with their new memories because that's fucking hardcore was Kamila even BORN yet

augh I DONT KNOW I CANT REACH I THINK I CANT REACH ANYTHING WHAT DO I DO MISSILE IS IN THE SWEET POTATO ON THE FOUNTAIN SISSEL IS IN THE NOZZLE BUT NOT THE CENTRAL ONE AND CANT REACH THE CENTRAL ONE WHAT DO I DO

okay sounds like I missed my chance let's try that again

ghhhh okay I think I have figured this sequence out even though I have to rewind again 1) rock the basket 2) jump into nozzle to launch the potato 3) Sissel jumps into the potato and then from the potato to the central nozzle 4) Missile jumps into the potato 5) launch the potato x2

okay, Mino fell into the fountain, not that I know how this can help because AGAIN, Missile can't reach Mino from the lantern :x and Sissel can't do absolutely fucking anything

annd the finale is a cutscene alas

alright, let's try that again...

hum we didn't get a FATE CHANGE registered after dropping Mino might this mean we have to do something right in the process?

AW YEAH THAT DEFINITELY JUST HAPPENED LMAO

are we going to kill everyone by dropping Mino on them instead XD

trick time, huh Sissel still can't reach anywhere Missile can swap two identical lanterns, not that this does anything he can talk to Sissel, for what THAT's worth

aha, the lantern dropped, Missile can move around now, that's good

Sissel still can't do shit though

well, that's the detective's LEG, not... anything else or anything

oh man, yeah... YOUNG JOWD IS A DUMBASS man, even Yomiel isn't aiming at him anymore, he's like 'hey dude are you okay' so the theory that Sissel is alternate!Yomiel is really gaining steam in my head not that it wasn't the primary one all along but

AW FUCK YEAH MISSILE THE BULLET CATCHING BADASS DOGGO!!!

anyway sweet potato?

BOO YAH um or not

OR YES ACTUALLY THAT WORKS

OH MY FUCKING GOD YEP THE LAMPPOST FUCKING MINO

awwwwww and finally the trauma of remembering your death is brought up!!!! Sissel cares <3 <3 <3 (and Yomiel doesn't at the moment NOT THAT I CAN'T UNDERSTAND THAT IN CONTEXT) (then again I'd understand it if Sissel didn't either but he's the purest being in existence so)

awwww Yomiel is finally going to contribute!!!

omfg lmao "Make it spray as if your life depended on it!" "Uh, I'm dead though" Yomiel is winning ALL the sensitivity awards tonight <3 <3 <3

I I think that Yomiel hasn't done anything yet oh, okay, we're still winning time

holy FUCK Yomiel that was definitely a thing you just did

dear Young Jowd, Yomiel is the one who saved her. Not gods

awwww and he gave baby Lynne a detective's badge <3 <3 <3 he's so good with children <3

so, can Yomiel be alive please :x ALRIGHT, HE IS THAT WORKS

THE KITTY DID THE METEORITE KILL THE KITTY

wait wait wait is is Sissel the kitty is that why he has no idea how guns work or anything else like that that that is truly fucking incredible f y'all's i AND I GUESS IT FITS WITH HIM AND MISSILE JUST GOING AROUND SAVING PEOPLE TOGETHER LIKE A BADASS DUO AND IT FITS WITH HIM GETTING KILLED BY LYNNE'S FIRST SHOT ON ACCIDENT I HONESTLY CONSIDERED A RAT OPTION FOR LIKE A SPLIT SECOND THERE

OMG OMG OMG OMG YE S AND HIS NAME REALLY IS SISSEL

god jesus fucking christ this this fucking game i just im howling this this definitely is a thing that just happened it owned me so hard im so fucking owned right now

yep hes the cat he's Yomiel's cat

aaaaaaaaaawwwwwwww there's a good reason he had identity confusion in all this they WERE confusable as one being for a while

'her' huh?

oh man wow THIS particular part of the story sucks

so Sissel was a girl's name all along? okay

but also, FUCK no wonder he went bonkers specifically about being unable to die

'his powers couldnt help anybody' more like they couldn't help ONE SPECIFIC PERSON

so that bag is a kitty carrier huh and Lynne's miss accidentally killed the kitty

LMAO THE PART WHERE WE ALL THOUGHT LYNNE HAD KILLED THE PROTAG WASN'T WRONG

I DAMN FUCKING REMEMBER THAT CAT JUST FOR YALLS I I ABSOLUTELY REMEMBERED THERE WAS A CAT THERE I JUST NEVER LINKED IT TO ANYTHING I JUST THOUGHT IT WAS A VERY PRETTY RANDOM STRAY

anyway Yomiel that's what you get for playing with guns they're deadly weapons and result in death you're fucking welcome

so anyway who the fuck is Ray

but anyway kitty Sissel saved everyone...

okay but hold on hold on hold on I didn't quite get the implications about the fiancee the first time around WHAT THE FUCK CAPCOM i was just recently thinking how fucked up it was that I remembered the last name of Polly Jenkins, just because of how much her brief story shook me

and uh I think is that also the implication here because that's not fucking okay

anyway so did Yomiel die as the result of that or nay bc that looked fucking deadly if not instantaneously so

god but this ffucking game

this fucking... game

oh Missile I'm pretty sure YOU are going to see HIM alright lmao wasn't Jowd taking him home

but also damn the original events of these ten years, as remembered by - a dog and a cat - Detective Jowd and Kamila (but not Alma, who never was brought back to life directly) - Lynne - Cabanela - the medical examiner - the minister of justice AND NO-ONE ELSE ...wait, no ALSO THE GUY FROM THE FUCKING PARK ...yep that's a thing we're doing

so another important thing is that the rock star kid is going to be okay and the curry guy, too nothing bad happened to them in this timeline, right?

ALRIGHT HI RAY WHAT/WHO THE FUCK ARE YOU

(right now my bet's on 'a rat')

oh, Sissel also killed two people tonight, that happened

lmao and in this version of evens Missile died in the presence of Temsik

omfg and Ray is alternate!Missile this is fucking amazing <3

lmao his ghost aged and lost its powers?

also the dawn deadline was a lie he just wanted to get Sissel's butt moving I FUCKING KNEW IT

I love how Sissel's just "I DID WHAT" even though he's been doing that all evening this time around too

yup doggie's a fucking liar the only real time limit is the lifetime they would have had if they were alive huh damn

but seriously I called that before I started this section of the liveblog even if I think I never actually made that post 'what are the odds Ray is a fucking liar' I don't think I ever wrote that I kept getting distracted but yep I fucking called this

THANK YOU FROM THE BOTTOM OF MY HEART GOD I AM ;U; THIS DOGGO

anyway one participant of the events who definitely wasn't born yet 10 years ago is indeed Missile 0.0 how's that... gonna work...

but I do love that just... the justice minister, of all people, is also going to be in possession of those 10 years

OH MY FUCKING GOD LYNNE IS ABOUT TO HAVE A FUCKING HEART ATTACK I KNOW THERE'S NO GUN BUT JESUS FUCKING CHRIST

KAMILA WHAT THE FUCK DON'T FUCKING DO THAT THAT'S ABSOLUTELY TERRIFYING

aawwwwwww IT WORKED THIS TIME AROUND

'nice to meet you' OH BOY OH BOY I GET HOW IT WORKS NOW I THINK ...uh, I'm not sure how Lynne knew to flee from the junkyard then, but either way it looks like they're only getting back their memories at the PRESENT and that's why Kamila didn't fUCKING KNOW AND REMEMBER WHAT THE FUCK WAS WRONG WITH DOING THAT JUST NOW

LMAO SOMETHING'S GOING TO EXPLODE TONIGHT

oh, nevermind, it's not that yet :D but it really does sound like it's going to :D right... about... dawn? :D

aww Jowd actually carries toy badges with him everywhere <3 <3 <3 'child handling tools'

still a kitten, huh yeah, that whole Temsik thing :D

aww, and here's her, all alive and everything

SO BIG MEMORYSPLOSION PLEASE

(at dawn) (it's fucking coming that's my headcanon and you can't beat it) (a bunch of people are going to become really fucking traumatized tonight)

hey!!! Missile!!! Cabanela brought him, huh

so, what's up with Yomiel, anyway

COME ON SISSEL MAKE NICE WITH MISSILE HE CAN'T CLIMB UP THERE

that guy's imitating Cabanela lmao

Memry <3 <3 <3

very best customer, huh

AWWW ITS THIS GUY HI GUY YOU'RE OKAY NOW WITHOUT YOMIEL TO RUIN EVERYTHING YOU'RE JUST FINE

hah, and these two

.............................................yup. they died

'the indescretions of a minister perhaps?' I LOVE THIS FUCKING LADY I LOVE HER I LOVE HER

ah, these two what deal is it this time

the little rock sinter guy!!! yeah!!!!

hi medical examiner guy <3 guess you're not doing medicine after all huh

HI LEAFLET PARK GUY YOU ARE STILL CUTE

HI BAILEY

oh man oh man Yomiel :D hey are talking about Yomiel :D

SHOW ME HIS FIANCEE YOU COWARDS

lmao he's the painter this time even the robe sits the same

SO SHOW ME

OH YEAH OH YEAH HE REMEMBERS THATS THE PICTURE OF THE FUCKING CAT AND NO MISTAKE ABOUT IT

YUP YUP THIS IS IT lmao that crane i sure do remember it well it murdered two people tonight <3 <3 <3 kitty <3 <3 <3

aw yeah! in that picture with Missile!!!